I haven't been around in ages and I can't believe all the changes you all have gone through while I've been gone. Congrats where they're due and hugs to those who need them (Gypsy - I'm so sorry to learn of your news today. You're in my thoughts.) I hate to pop in only when you're needed, but..well, here I am!
We went today for an initial IVF consult and found out that I am going to be starting BCPs in 2 weeks. :-/ And now that we're actually moving forward I am finding myself pretty terrified, and moving forward so quickly, while good for our schedule, has thrown me for a total loop. I can't believe we're getting back on this roller coaster again.
Did any of you feel ambivalent/not enthusiastic about going back to try for another baby? I've always wanted a lot of kids (and we haven't used birth control since Ollie was born) but now that another pregnancy is a real possibility I'm having second(ish) thoughts. I only weaned in November and we started TTC in March '06, so over the past 6 years my body has only been my own for 3 months. Ollie was a very high needs baby and the thought of doing that again with another (or two!) babies while caring for Oliver is terrifying. We have such a great little family unit and I worry that I'm taking something from Ollie by trying to add to our family. And this doesn't even begin to deal with the logistics of IVF (and pregnancy) with a toddler.
What do I tell him about all these doctors appointments? He's so verbal and curious - he was so worried when I told him we were going to the doctor. I don't want to lie to him, but what if I tell him the doctor is going to put a baby in my belly and it doesn't work? And what if I wind up on bedrest or something - how can I be a SAHM who is laid up on the couch?
I know you guys don't have answers to these questions and for the most part I'm not even looking for answers. I guess I just want to hear that it's normal not to be excited and to be unsure. Help!
Sorry for the novel - you guys missed those, right? ;)