So a little history...I was pregnant early last year and was due May 6th with our first little boy. I went into labor early (March 22nd), and delivered our baby boy 6 weeks early; only to find out that all his vital organs were surrounded by fluid and he was not able to breathe on his own or with assistance. It was determined that he had Hydrops. He lived for only an hour. So, I left the hospital the next day with no baby in my arms. It was a completely devestaing blow. I felt like we duped everyone we know. We talked about waiting until this year to start trying again, but we went on a little getaway that has resulting in this pregnancy! I am having another boy and we cant be more excited. But there is a part of me that is uneasy about the whole situation. I know I can make it to the hospital and deliver a baby but, what I am scared about is what happens after I deliver.
The question that rolls through my head day after day are: "Am I just in this for the heck of it?" This time we are fully prepared to bring the baby home, we've got EVERYTHING we need, and then some!
How can I manage to stay stress-free?