I am extremely nervous. They told me the risk of trying to pass my 8 1/2 week developed baby would be too great at home, and that I should have a D&C this week. It isn't my first D&C, I had an incomplete miscarriage at 7 weeks in 2005, but this is the first one while on blood thinners. I am so nervous something will go wrong, but at the same time I just want it over so I can begin to heal. I feel so guilty for feeling that way, but with the pregnancy hormones still in my body it feels like a cruel joke. To feel so pregnant, but know the baby is no longer living.
I am also having a hard time with comments from people. Everyone means well, but everytime someone says I am sorry for your loss or I am sorry about your baby I want to break down. My aunt even sent me a message basically bashing me for even getting pregnant in the first place. She hadn't said anything when I told her I was pregnant or when we heard and saw the heartbeat, but now that the baby is gone she is running free with her thoughts about it. I already feel guilty enough as it is. Anyone else have people saying things that only make it worse?