Last year I had my first DD, she's almost 14 months now. On Oct 31st 2010, my maternal Grandfather died. My baby was 6 weeks old. I was already dealing with PPD, and of course this just made it worse. I went on Paxil, but it still took me until around January to feel any better. At that point is when I found out I was pregnant with DD2, so I had to stop the meds.
Well DD2 was born this September, and again I am dealing with PPD. Have been taking Paxil for 3 weeks now. Yesterday my step-mom called from Mexico, which I knew in my heart what she was calling to tell me because she wouldn't call otherwise. My father passed away yesterday, had a heart attack in his sleep.
Now I can't help but feel everytime I have a child, is someone close to me going to die? I am still in shock over my fathers death, not that he was the healthiest guy, but there were no warning signs or anything. I don't know quite how to deal with this, my depression, and 2 under 2. I feel like doing nothing. I just want to be left alone but it's impossible. Anyone had to deal with great losses like this twice in a row? Any advice on how to get through it would be great.