This limbo thing just sucks. I am waiting for either a positive test or for AF to show. This is the longest cycle that I have had in years! I just want this all to be over. Either get pregnant this cycle or not. Since this was the last cycle trying, the waiting is even more intense. All tests have been negative, and I am ok with that.
But then where is AF so that I can just get on with my life? And when I think about it, I would be very happy with just having one child instead of two. But I would be thrilled with two, of course. And it would figure that it would be this month, since I just gave away all of Nathaniel's baby clothes. (Really... just did it on Monday and Tuesday.) It's CD 36, and I am 11dpo. I didn't take a test this morning, since I used the last one yesterday and don't want to buy any more. I will if AF doesn't show by Saturday.
With my most recent pregnancy, I got a positive 11dpo in the afternoon. Faint, but it was there. I so desperately want to run to Target and get some more tests, but I am not. I am afraid to see what they would say (either + or -. Both scare me at this point.)
I am sorry to rant here, I just have no other women in my life that could understand how much the waiting sucks, no matter what the outcome. I hate not being able to plan other things when I don't know for sure what my next goal is.