I'm 10 weeks today, and I feel like I've passed a huge milestone. We saw the tiny flutter of a heartbeat at 7.5 weeks, and it feels like this has been a strong pregnancy (m/s, extreme fatigue, hormones INSANE, etc.). I had 2 small instances of light brown spotting, and both times it appears it was okay (during the 7-8 weeks, when I guess it's kinda normal). I have some undiagnosed anxiety issues, and I've been doing my damndest not to stress out, but after my miscarriage last year I feel like I'm just walking on eggshells. A former coffee-holic, I've cut my caffeine to a tiny amount or none at all. I don't go over my 180 grams a day, but am slammed with immense guilt if I have a cup of coffee in the morning (1 cup max, then no soda or tea or coffee for the rest of the day). I know I'm just hormonal, stressed, and worried, but I'm just looking for reasons I could miscarry...I'll feel guilt all day about my cup of coffee. Some days I feel so positive and confident, and some days I just wanna cry all do (and sometimes do) because with each passing week, the stakes get higher. At my husband's urging, we made a facebook announcement today, and I've been worried all day. Despite the fact that I HAVE had a miscarriage and have to be gluten free, there's no reason to worry. The absence of any symptoms also sends me into a spiral...like I've not really had tender breasts at all, although I have thrown up like 4 times and am feeling generally pukey throughout the day. If I go a few hours without getting gaggy, I get nervous.
I know this is long and rambling, but you ladies always make me feel better! :) Anyone else so consumed with worry that it's all they can do? I'm just so in love to this little baby already that I can't imagine suddenly being without it.