Hello ladies - I'm back!
First, I am sorry for the disappearing act. I just needed a break and with everything that has gone on the last month and a half, I just had to unplug from the Bump for a little while. I hope you understand. I did lurk periodically to check in on you. But, I am back now!
Ok, so let's see where we left off... Work had been a beast this year and I am convinced the added stress was contributing to my IUI failures. Then in mid-April, I was laid off. Sounds horrible, but it was really a blessing in disguise. It was a Monday and IUI #5 was scheduled for Wednesday! I had a Junior League meeting that night that I seriously wanted to skip-out on since I didn't know what the lack of employment would do to the baby-making plans. I am single, remember, so no husband with a second income in this household. It's all me. Anyway, I decided to go to the meeting anyway since I sit on the steering committee for our largest fundraiser. I got there early and was talking to my friend Jamie and telliing her about work. Right then and there, she offered me a job consultiing for her communications company.
It's awesome and the prefect job for me. I'm a contract employee so no benefits, but I can handle that on my own since my hourly rate is so much higher than my previous salary. I work flexible hours, from home - about 25-30 hours a week. And still make more money than my advertising job. I am loving it! I feel like I spent the last 12 years of my career being overly ambitious at the expense of having a family. Always working hard, trying to prove myself, trying to get the next promotion. I am done with all that. I am just happy being good at what I do. I have never been happier.
Unfortunately, IUI #5 was still a failure. I was really bummed as it seemed to be the perfect scenario, but it was not to be. That's when I disappeared. I just needed a break. I even disappeared from my RE too. Well, it's been a month and I went into see the RE today for a WTF consult. I am much more discouraged than he seems to be. There is technically nothing wrong with me, I just seem to get the crap end of the odds. We decided that I would take this month off as well and then try one more medicated IUI in July. (I have one vial left). If that does not work, I will select a new donor and proceed with IVF in the Fall. I hate the thought of the $$$, but I like having a plan.
I think I might actually be able to afford IVF, but only because I got a sweet severance from my old job and started working the new job a few weeks later. It's funny how everythign works out.
So, here I am on CD2, waiting for this period to end and the next one to begin so I can give IUI with donor 12028 one more chance.
I'm starting to read through all the posts again, but I can't wait for all your updates.
I missed you!
Glad to be back,