TTC After a Loss

Oblivious

I am so wanting to be pregnant that I thought I was already a week late... I'm not due until Monday.  I got a pregnancy test a few days ago and it was negative and i was like "okay nothing this month" and then I looked at the calendar - duhhh...

Super tired the last two days, but no other symptoms.  I hate this roller coaster ride and this makes me mad because I want to ENJOY the experience. I realized that I'm never going to be able to enjoy getting or being pregnant, it will always be waiting for the next milestone.   How unfair is that?  I know you ladies feel me.

 Send some pregnancy fairy dust my way :)

 

Re: Oblivious

  • Yep, it is completely unfair. Our future pregnancies will always be tainted with that fear and the realization that not all pregnancies end with a healthy baby.

    Good luck this cycle though!


    My Blog: Grow Baby Grow

    BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010

    BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

    3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

    Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

    First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

    Laura Kate arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

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  • I know exactly how you feel. We all have to try and enjoy the little milestones that do come up and try not to get to weighted down by the fear. I was convinced I was pregnant this month too....but I wasn't....I've been so emotional and so tired of it but this board and these women have helped.

     Hope. Trust. Pregnancy fairy dust.

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