TTC After a Loss

Lost and Wandering

Hello Ladies - New to the board but not to the site.  Don't know if my signature will show up with the repeated miscarriages (5).  My last one I made it to a heartbeat and then lost it the day after Christmas.  It's taken that long for me to get my primary care physician and the referral department to get the referral to a specialist that was suggested by my OB.  I'm beyond frustrated and have spent the better half of the afternoon googling "can get pregnant, just can't stay that way".  I know, ultimately that I will have more of a real answer once I have seen the specialist, but considering it has taken, oh, almost 5 months and I'm not getting any younger, I just feel like crying. (Which may just be a pregnancy symptom, I won't know for another week).

I have progesterone suppositories left over from my last pregnancy and am considering starting them. I purchased baby aspirin yesterday and took one (haven't taken one today yet).  Sort of taking my care into my own hands just form what I've seen successful for others because I just cannot stand having things out of my control.

My OB did blood tests, hysteroscopy to check my uterus... everything was fine.  He never bothered to test my progesterone (just put me on it last time) and they only once tested my HCG levels....  I feel like I've gotten crap care and for someone who is used to fixing everything, it makes it even more frustrating.

I just want to know WHY this is happening and WHAT to do to have a baby.  Not sit around and wait for the red tape to be cut as I grow older and more high risk.  Thanks for listening

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  • I am so very sorry about your losses.  Welcome to the board. I think the waiting is the worst part.  I hope you get some answers and a plan of action very soon.
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  • Thank you! Yes the waiting is the worst. And this stupid roller coaster ride...  

    Wait two weeks... am I pregnant???  Yes I am....

    Miscarriage pending, wait to miscarry.

    Wait to have at lest one normal period.

    Try to conceive, and wait two weeks after ovulation to find out if your pregnant.

    Pregnant again?  Yes... Yippie.... 

    Miscarriage pending, wait to miscarry...

    and on and on and on... 5 times I start to question my sanity of trying again.  Obviously I want this so badly. LOL

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    I am so incredibly sorry for your losses.  I hope you are able to get your referral soon and get some answers.  I also hope that you find lots of comfort and support here.  I look forward to getting to know you, but I hope your stay is short and you move on to PGAL with a sticky BFP soon!
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    BFP #1 EDD 9/10/11, natural miscarriage at 6w
    BFP #2 Medicated cycle, twin boys born 4/4/12 at 29w4d
    BFP #3 EDD 8/8/14, D&C for missed miscarriage at 8w, baby boy with triploidy
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    I'm so sorry for your losses.  I hope you can find some answers with the specialist.

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  • I am so sorry for your losses, and I hate that you have to be here. I am thankful that you finally get to see a specialist. I hope you find the answers that will lead to your take home baby! I would be cautious about self-medicating with the progesterone until you actually see the RE and can consult with them. Welcome to the board!
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    Massive uterine fibroids removed 3/06
    BFP 1/11; MM/C discovered @ 10w, loss at 6w; Cytotec
    B/W 7/11 = normal CD3, FSH 8.9; 7DPO progesterone 1.7
    Three Clomid cycles, all BFN, Off to an RE for me...
    FSH=8.7 E2=30 AMH=1.8 HSG clear, SA=great
    Inj. IUI #1 12/9/11 BFN, Inj. IUI #2 1/6/12 BFN
    Inj. IUI #3 1/30/12 BFP!, HCG doubled through 6w, 7w u/s mm/c twins
    Factor V Leiden, Hetero, symptomatic
    Op Hysteroscopy 5/12, removed scar tissue and uterine septum
    Doing Cryo-DE IVF 
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    BFP 9/7/12 EDD May 19, 2013
    A/S on 12/21/12, Petra's having a baby, it's the end of the world!
    Pebbles arrived safe and sound 4/13. Placenta accreta found.
    Op hysteroscopy 2/7, reopen ute/remove adhesions from accreta
    Found severe Ashermans. Fuuuuuuu... Repeat Op Hyst in March.
    Op Hyst ver 3.0 looks good so far, find out if it worked in June.
    Finally got the damn IUD out. Waiting to stop bleeding.
    SIS shows rippled funky shaped ute, but given clearance to begin sFET calendar.
    Here goes everything...
    sFET#2 BFP, ended in m/c.
    Waiting for the next Op Hysteroscopy to find out what next.
    Scratch that, retained tissue. 3rd Cytotec round.
    Another damn Op Hyst. Found and removed retained tissue.
    Pathology returned fine, no molar. Cleared for final attempt after next cycle.

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  • I remember you from the MC/PL board!  Welcome to the board.  I'm so sorry for all your losses.  I hope your stay is short and sweet! 
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    Adopted our furbaby Kona ~ January 17, 2010
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    2nd BFP 11.4.10 ~ EDD 7.15.11 ~ HB 6w3d ~ No HB 7w ~ mmc 12.8.10 ~ d&c 12.9.10
    3rd BFP 7.12.11 ~ EDD 3.22.12 ~ HB 6w5d 124 bpm ~ Team Green ~ 
    4th BFP 6.20.13 ~ EDD 3.1.14 ~ HB 7w5d 153 bpm ~ A/S revealed due date possibly 2.23
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  • Hi, I'm so sorry for your losses and that you have to be here but  this board can be a great place for support.  GL and you move forward with some new Drs.
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  • Thank you everyone.  I was in quite a funk yesterday. It's so nice to see support from people who "get it"!!!!  I took a hpt today (too early to take it really) and it was negative, so either I took it too early or I'm not pregnant.  I want to be pregnant but at the same time I think it is best if I am not and can wait to conceive after seeing specialist. either way there is nothing I can do but try to be patient.Thanks again for your support ladies! It is very much appreciated!
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