I lost my baby on April 10 due to an ectopic pregnancy, and I feel like I am really losing it. My husband and I have been at each other's throats for the last few days. I am getting no support from my family. The other day when I was crying to my Mom about wanting my baby back she just told me that she was "going through stuff too." My oldest sister, who lost a baby when she was 19 (she is 37 now) hasn't even once contacted me about my loss. My other sister is going through a seperation and soon a divorce, and I don't want to bother her, so she is too busy to contact me. I am so close to suicide right now, which is horrible b/c I have a 3 y.o. that I need to live for, but I just want to die. I can't help it, I feel like my life is falling apart. I feel like my husband and I are heading for a divorce. I have already been through one, and I love my husband more than I have ever love any other man and I don't want to lose him. I am terrified. I can't afford therapy, and the support group in my area only meets once a month. I have no one to turn to and I am at the end of my rope. I don't know what to do. When I got pregnant (which was planned) my husband became mean and distant, and sometimes I wished that I hadn't gotten pregnant, now I feel like I doomed my baby. I feel so guilty. I know it's not my fault and I had no connection with my baby dying but I can't help but to feel responsible. I am trying to do my best by focusing on my son and spending all the time I can interacting with him, but nothing eases my pain. Help me please!