It's been one week and 2 days since my d&c.
This weekend at work someone was showing around her sister's u/s pics of her baby at 13 weeks which is right when I lost my pregnancy. Seeing that perfectly formed little baby had me wondering these last 2 days about how everything looked after my d&c. I'm certain a fully formed little 13 week fetus didn't get suctioned right out. I had my last u/s at 10 weeks and he/she had little arms and legs and actually looked like a miniature baby. I don't think i'll have enough guts to ask my doctor at my f/u appointment "so what exactly did it look like when it came out" mostly because I probably don't want to know the answer.
Im still also haunted about the form they had me sign at the hospital before the surgery about releasing the 'remains' to a funeral home vs. disposing of it as medical waste. a funeral home/cremation seemed way too intense at the time but now I hate remembering my decision.
I know these thoughts make me sounds like a total wierdo but I this isn't exactly something I can talk about with my friends and I had to just get it out.