So long story short, chemical pregnancy again.
And this weekend I'm peak fertile (I can't think right now due to lack of sleep, so this won't be all scientific to say the least). My fiance wants to try again but I'm nervous. I don't want to lose it again... How do I know for sure that I'm ready? It's not been very long since I lost Djeri, so I'm afraid we are rushing this. He knows I'm scared about it, but he is so sure it will be ok...
All I can think is, what if I'm not ready... And what if I lose this one too?
Re: Unsure
I agree that it's perfectly normal to be scared about TTC again.
What did your doctor say about waiting? After my first loss my OB told us to wait one cycle. I got pregnant the next cycle & lost that one too. This time she suggested we wait 2 cycles before trying again.
Married 1/2/99.
TTC since 4/09.
Diagnosed PCOS. Diagnosed Hypothryoid 11/09.
SHG & SA normal. PCOS Research study started 5/10.
Clomid/Femara cycle #1 - 6/10 = BFN
Clomid/Femara cycle #2 - 7/10 = BFP #1 - Missed miscarriage 9/2/10
11/12 - BFP #2 - 11/22 - m/c
5/1/11 - BFP #3 - Pre-eclampsia, IUGR & bed rest from 32w. DD born via induction 1/4/12.
BFP#1 - 9/2/10, EDD 5/14/11, Twins Hannah and Liam lost 11/7/10 @ 13w1d.
BFP #2 - 2/9/11, EDD 10/13/11, LO lost 2/13/11 @ 5w4d
BFP #3 - 5/9/11, DS born 1/13/12
~*~My BFP Chart~*~Our Story~*~
~*~Labor Buddies with Sweet Turnip - Welcome Baby Girl 2/23/12 & Aluenna - Welcome Ivy 1/6/12~*~
So I have had two doctor appointments since and she had told me that if I wanted to wait, it wouldn't be a bad idea. I talked to my fiance about it and we ended up fighting about it (made me feel real good) and he finally told me after the fight that he is scared if we don't try now, we won't be able to have one...
Which I think the same thing. We agreed to not exactly try, but not prevent either. If it happens, then it happens. He understands I'm scared of losing yet another one, so he agreed that we wouldn't purposely have sex just to try anymore.
And honestly, I think it is better than trying right now. I feel much closer and much more better. Thank you for the support and I will keep you guys posted:)