DH is at work and my mom isn't picking up her phone. My one friend is semi mad at me and this involves my other friend, so you lucky ladies get my vent.
I was just told that the little girl I watch twice a week will not be coming anymore. This will be her last day. Her mom (my friend) found an in-home daycare closer to her house. I understand that and I'm not mad. I would have liked to have known they were looking elsewhere before the last day here though. I am going to miss her. She has become like a sister to Gage and they really love each other. They say each other's names and wave hi all day.
The part that I am really upset about (because I know I will still see her) is the sudden loss of money. I SAH so the $200 a month was really helpful. It may not seem like much but it pays out electric and cable. So now, I am just out that money. We have already been spending more than we bring in, so this just makes it all that much worse. I am just in tears, because I know I am going to have to get a part time job now. With going to college too, it means more time away from Gage and that hurts so much to think about.
And that means he will have to go to MIL's which I didn't want to have to do more than I already do for classes. I know she loves him a lot, but her style of child care is much different than mine and she won't change for anyone. I can't afford anywhere else. What would be the point in paying for childcare when the reason I have to work is to make extra money.
I just feel sick over this. It just hit me out of the blue. If I had some warning it might not hurt so bad or be such a shock. I just keep tearing up. Thanks for listening if you made it this far.