I wish I hadn't told my sister that I'm sick of hearing about her "textbook pregnancy" and that she has some nerve for talking about how awesome her twins are doing when I was basically forced to give up going to work because I was so sick. My only savings grace was this new technological age so I could video chat with my coworkers and work from my laptop whether I was in the hospital or at home. People in my family say "Stephanie, if only you did everything you were supposed to like Natalie does and like Melissa did when she was pregnant you wouldn't have your baby in the NICU." I did everything I was supposed to do and nothing I wasn't. Why Jocelyn had to be born early, why I had all these problems...nobody knows. I'm sick of having my pregnancy compared to my sisters. Yes, we're triplets...that doesn't mean we'll have identical pregnancies. I wish I hadn't made her cry, and I wish she'd pick up the phone so I could apologize. Sorry....I just had to vent....thanks for listening.