A woman from my church surprised me by sending me a book. It's was written in the 1985, so it's a little dated about how doctors react but really still good. It helps explain why miscarrages and stillborns are so hard on the mother and others can't understand. The book is Free to Greive by Maureen Rank, who herself had multiple miscarrages and still born twins. Reading it helping me process through how I feel and get ready to start trying again.