This is my former post..... (skip ahead to bold print for update if you remember reading this)My good friend since 7th grade has always expressed that she would freak out with excitement when I had my first child because she always claimed I'd be the cutest pregnant lady. Well, she had a miscarriage a little over a year ago and she is still heart broken, which I don't blame her one bit. When I heard I took the earliest flight to be with her across country.When I told her I was pregnant her reaction was "oohh... sooo, what else is new?" I followed her cues and talked for a little bit about what she wanted to talk about before I ended our conversation. When I got of the phone, I cried. (I'm assuming she cried too judging by her reaction) She has never made an effort to call me since. When I call her I make small talk about regular day events, her up coming wedding, etc. and when she says she is sad about the loss I always comfort her and tell her I'm so sorry but nothing else because I don't want her to feel I'm judging how she is coping. I really really do try to not make her hurt more than she is. She has said things on her facebook about how she's angry at women who are pregnant and complain about being sick, also how she's annoyed with women that talk about being pregnant. She also puts posts up about how her body is stupid and she'll never get pregnant. ... I personally have had some pretty serious hospital visits for dehydration, passing out, and constant throwing up. Family and friends have heard and posted that they are praying for me and baby via facebook (we live VERY far away from everyone so that's why) Even with the rough pregnancy I never bring it up to her even though her support would be so nice. I'm finding myself personally so drained in trying to comfort her AND in trying to keep the friendship strong. It's completely one sided in efforts now. At times it makes me cry or feel guilty and to be honest at times it makes me a little frustrated boarder-lined angry. *sigh*I know that I wouldn't ever truly understand unless I went through it but I still hurt in a different way. I don't know, I just don't know. I left a part of the story out to not over complicate the deep down situation of pain and hurt but now I HAVE to add to the story... I'm her maid of honor on October 17th. OK, so I was in the middle of writing my feelings down on paper to sort them all out and gently bring them up to her. I was going to talk to her sometime this week so all the feelings would hopefully be in the open and ok by her big day. Well about 10 minutes ago, I received a text message from her telling me they rescheduled the wedding for February 5th.... ...I'm due Feb. 1st....I texted her back saying, "oh no, rescheduling is never fun! What happened hun? You can call me if you need to talk!!! I hope everything is ok!"She replies with, "Nothing we just moved it to February because it seems more romantic to us, it will safe us some money."I reply, "I'm happy you will safe money and you feel the date is better because it seems more romantic! However, that is really close to my due date and I probably won't be able to be there. I'm so happy for you both I really wish I could be there."She replies "It's ok if you can't be there."I have not replied, I don't want to reply, If I wanted to reply I wouldn't even know what to say! I'm just shocked at the short and brunt answer. I feel like I'm dreaming. This just puts me over the limits with my ability to understand and figure things out. I mean, whatever, it's her big day and she can do whatever she wants but I am just sitting here not knowing how to feel!