I have some major anxiety around my health/dying. I am becoming more and more (irrationally) terrified that I'm not going to survive the birth of this baby. I think maybe it's heightened b/c of DS and I'm afraid of leaving him w/o a mom. Again, I know this sounds crazy, I know there is nothing I can do about it. I just needed to say it out loud. I'm afriad people in my real life will think I've gone off the deep end.