How do you feel?

dizzycooks

My doc (incompetent as he is...) said we can TTC after one cycle.  Well my cycle is over and we are back to TTC.  I am excited about it, but I am still finding that I get upset and sad at the strangest times!  I know a month isn't long to wait, but we have already been trying for more than a year so we don't want to keep waiting.  I am calling a new doctor next week and hoping to set up an initial visit with him asap. 

Things are off to a good start with DH and he has come to terms with a few different things that were stressing him out earlier.  We are not moving, we are going to stick it out in our house for a while longer and he is comfortable with that (a new development that I am thankful for!).  He is done with his MBA program in three weeks which will be great!

How do you feel about this new journey TTCAL?  I guess what I am saying is I go back and forth, I am excited about what the future holds, but sad about what we missed out on with this baby.

ColleenS629

I'm glad things are going better for you. As far as my feelings on TTCAL... I am still upset about our loss and I am terrified of having another loss. I'm more scared of not having a take home baby though, so here we are. TTCAL is a lot less fun than TTC the first time around. 

kmount

I don't think that sadness will ever go away; it will just fade over time.  I want a baby with all of my being, but the fear will niggle away on that anyway.  It just plain sucks.

firefightersgal

TTCAL has been an exhausting journey for me.  I have secondary infertility in addition to having a m/c.  We've been TTC since December 2008.  It seems like I just go through the motions anymore and don't really expect to get a BFP again.

However, I have recently had a health break-through and am in the process of being diagnosed with Celiac Disease.  All I have to do is remove gluten from my diet and my IF and m/c issue (along with other health problems) may be solved.  I'm excited again at the idea that I might have a chance and and answer.  Then again, it's been so long that I don't allow myself to get *too* excited. 

PrincessDi80

ColleenS629:

I'm glad things are going better for you. As far as my feelings on TTCAL... I am still upset about our loss and I am terrified of having another loss. I'm more scared of not having a take home baby though, so here we are. TTCAL is a lot less fun than TTC the first time around. 

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dizzycooks

PrincessDi80:

ColleenS629:

I'm glad things are going better for you. As far as my feelings on TTCAL... I am still upset about our loss and I am terrified of having another loss. I'm more scared of not having a take home baby though, so here we are. TTCAL is a lot less fun than TTC the first time around. 

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I could not agree more!