My sister is 35 weeks. I've mentioned before how she also has an abnormally shaped uterus (don't know if it's bicornuate or septate yet) and MTHFR...all of which she found out before she got pregnant because she was tested because of ME. She told me at her first shower how she knows exactly what I'm feeling because everytime she goes to the doctor she psychs herself up because if she got bad news or her baby was to not make it, she would be ready for it. She also said "If she doesn't move enough I think she is dying, and if she moves too much, I think she is having a seizure or something." Give me a Fvcking break!!! I kept my cool and didn't say anything at the time because I didn't want to ruin her shower. I wanted to say, "I'm so sorry my loss is causing you so much stress!!!"
Well tonight she told me how stressed she is and how much she's worried about her health and the baby's health when she delivers. I asked her what she means by that and why she's so stressed. She got really mad at me and told me how "it's been touch and go from the beginning". WHATEVER!!! Now, she does have to see a high risk OB, take Lovenox injections, but who doesn't!!! I told her maybe because of all the tests and crap I've been through, plus I work in NICU and PICU and see and work in the worst and saddest situations, but I don't understand why she is so stressed and freaking out so much. Her baby is perfectly healthy, growing right on target, and hasn't had any issues.
Well I'm thinking about writing her an email and tell her exactly how I feel. I really just want to write it down for myself, and hopefully get it out of my system. I know I should tell her in person or on the phone (she lives 3 hrs away), but I'm not that strong and know I won't tell her exactly how I feel. But, on the other hand, I don't want to hurt her...But, on the other hand, she has really hurt me.
This is what I've written so far, but may delete it without sending (esp the ending):
1st pregnancy: BFP- 6/28/09 - Found out we lost our little girl on 10/9/09 at 19w 4d - D&E- 10/14/09
June 2010, corrective surgery for Septate Uterus and large fibroids
2nd pregnancy: BFP- 10/18/10 - Slow rising, non-doubling HCGs, no heart beat. Non-viable pregnancy, D&C- 11/12/10
Started Metformin 6/30/11, Started Clomid 7/20/11 - Unsuccessful
HSG and Laparoscopic surgery revealed blocked tubes and lots of scar tissue...IVF here we come!!!
Surprise BFP naturally!!! IT'S A BOY!!!