IF is very hard to deal with as we all know but what makes you strong? What makes you not give up hope and just sit in a corner and feel sorry for yourself?
When we were TTC with baby#2, I was diagnosed with SIF. I was devastated and became totally obsessed with wanting to get pregnant. People were all getting pregnant around me and it hurt more than I would like to admit. I cried ALOT but thankfully I already had one beautiful miracle to keep me going.
Now we are trying again and while I wish I wouldn't have to go through all I go through to get pregnant but again, my kids keep me strong.
One of my best friends also suffers from SIF. She tried for over 18 months and just never got pregnant. Finally, on New Years I got a text from her that red "BFP!!!! (she is also on message boards-lol)" and I was SO excited for her. At 8 weeks, she went for her appointement saw a healthy baby and we couldn't be happier for her. We all cried. THen at 12 weeks, she went back for a check up and the baby had passed shortly after the 8 week u/s, it was devastating. I cried so much because I was hurting for her but she kept strong and a few months later got pregnant again. Her bay boy is now 6 months old and has got to be one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen. He smiles all the time and is such a delight. When I look at him, I remember how many tears we shed together before he finally made his appearance and what a beautiful miracle he is today.
So each time AF shows up or gets so sad because it's taking so long to get pregnant, I think of Chase (that's the baby's name) and that God had a plan and eventough we didn't understand it at the time, his plan was pure perfection and ABSOLUTELY worth the wait and tears shed.