Not that I didn't cringe when I'd hear about child abuse before, but ever since having ds, the image of child abuse stories I hear get stuck in my mind and they upset me.
For example when my ds was only a few weeks old my best friend told me a story in her news about a couple who neglected their newborn so much that the baby died. I guess the woman was going to work complaining about the "little effing monster" at work, so someone called CPS. They found the baby with buns on his feet from being placed on the hot radiator, malnourished and with tape marks on his face from where they taped his pacifier to his face. The baby was 1 week old when he died.
Normally that story would've made me sad while I heard it and then I would've moved on. Now that I have my son I found myself thinking about it when I looked at him and felt great sorrow for that poor baby and have trouble shaking the images right away. I would think about how that baby must have cried himself to sleep every night, how he was in pain and no one loved him. It makes me cry to think what if that was my son.
So I find myself not able to read news stories or listen to people tell stories about abuse because I know I will have trouble getting the sad images out of my mind.