Excited and Nervous - Intro

GoldenTMama

I'm 31, SO is 32 and we have been TTC since November 2014. We live in Long Beach, CA and our heading out to Alaska tonight for my best friend's wedding! I got my bfp yesterday morning and confirmed with 2 more tests this morning.  I'm definitely having a good morning today. I'm so excited and so nervous. I had 2 early losses last year and it makes be cautious, but I also can't help being excited too! I have been going to an acupuncturist since about November 2015 for fertility treatments, so I am hoping she is helping and that this will be a sticky baby. I know you are all feeling the same kind of mixed emotions and I'm so glad that this board is here for us all. Thanks for reading! Wishing you all happy and healthy 9 months (or however many you have left)! 

anna.oskar

Hi!  Welcome!

waterfall213

Congrats and welcome!

Megz1902

Welcome and Congrats! Have a great time in Alaska! 

westcoastfoodie

Congrats! Another socal mom here, but up in LA! Have a great time in Alaska! 

babiecake2002

Congratulations!!! I got a BFP on Friday and I can't help but be excited even with the caution.. Have a great trip

carrieandr

Congratulations! I had two losses last year as well and now I'm 30 weeks. I hope the third time is the charm for you, too!

rkrichey

Congrats and welcome!!

GoldenTMama

Thank you all for your congrats and well wishes. Unfortunately this pregnancy did not sick. Started spotting on Monday, which turned into heavy bleeding and cramps on Tuesday. The miscarriage was confirmed by blood work today. We are so sad/angry that this is our 3rd MC, but we will not give up. We will try again to build our family. 

tinypikachu

I am so sorry. This is heartbreaking news. I hope you get a chance soon and that you hold your rainbow in no time.

GoldenTMama

@AlwaysAuntNeverMom Thank you. 

carrieandr

I just saw this -- I'm so sorry!  I wish you the best of luck. 

GoldenTMama

Thank you @CarrieandRoy Today has been one of those rough days where I miss being pregnant and feel sad about losing another chance at becoming parents. But I have faith that we will grow our family and that we will have are rainbow baby one day soon. 

I am so happy to see that you are so near holding your little one. I wish you all the best. 

Hopefulmommy1980

I am sorry for your loss

GoldenTMama

I'm actually planning on taking a HPT tonight after work. We weren't trying this cycle since we had just had a loss and we went to our first appointment with a RE just over a week ago, but I guess we also were not careful because it looks like I'm 16DPO today. If i wasn't temping I would have just figured I am having a wonky cycle (which I might be), but I have a clear temp rise at CD16 (just a few days later than normal) and have pretty much kept my temp up. I'm nervous to test, but I think I should since I would like to be sure if I'm just having a wonky cycle or not. 

lilp2015

Any update on the hpt? I had found out I was expecting again 5 weeks after my second loss. She's currently 10 days old. 

carrieandr

I'm curious too...

GoldenTMama

@lilp2015 @CarrieandRoy It was positive! I got my BFP that night and another one in the morning (just to be sure lol). I'm at 5 weeks today with a EDD of 2/28 based on LMP (so that might need to be changed a little since I O'ed couple days later than normal). But I am nervous and excited, and hoping that everything is going well with this one.   I have my first appointment scheduled for 7/13. 

Thanks for asking! 

GoldenTMama

lilp2015 said:

Any update on the hpt? I had found out I was expecting again 5 weeks after my second loss. She's currently 10 days old. 

That's so great to hear! I love hearing success stories, they make me feel so much better and give me a positive outlook on my own situation. Congrats and thank you!! 

purplefan1

Good luck!! 

tennisbabymama

What a roller coaster! Just read though this whole thing. SO happy for you!!! I was pregnant very soon after my loss and I am now 37 weeks. It can happen! Praying for a happy and healthy 9 months for you! 

lilp2015

Congrats! Did you have any testing done after the losses? My ob tested after the second one. I had to take a ton of pills a blood thinner shot progesterone suppository and 10 weeks of bedrest but she was worth every minute of it! Prayers for a happy and healthy 9 months!!

GoldenTMama

Thanks @lilp2015
My OB ran some blood tests after my first 2 MCs, but they didn't turn up any issues. She offered to refer me to an RE if I wanted, but she said that I might have just had "bad luck" the first 2 times and so we decided to just try again. The 3rd MC was only this past May and it was so early that I hadn't even had the chance to see her before I lost it. After the 3rd MC, we finally made an appointment with an RE (the one my OB referred me to was out of my insurance network so I picked another). He was very nice and we planned some tests for when my next cycle started... then we got a BFP!

I have good days and bad days with anxiety, so we will just have to wait. I have an "office appointment" with one of my OB's partners tomorrow, so hopefully he/she will give me a little comfort. 

lilp2015

I have pretty bad anxiety. Zoloft was on my list of meds I took. It helped a lot. My ob seen me every week for a sono till I was 12 weeks then I seen her and a specialist (gestational diabetes) every other week till I ran into a problem with a short cervix. Then I was back to weekly appts at 24 weeks. It was good and bad for my nerves going all the time. 

GoldenTMama

@lilp2015 I completely understand what you mean. It's was probably good for your nerves that your doctors were being for attentive (seeing you weekly) and could give you relief each time things were going well. But I can also see how that could be a lot for your nerves to be constantly (and weekly) forced to think about whether the pregnancy is going well or not. 

I'm so glad to hear that you have a healthy little girl at home.

carrieandr

Woohoo! I'm so glad you got good news!!