Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Today I Cried Because...

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  • @Ciarad6
    I totally agree with the whole drinking thing. I haven't and won't drink anymore because I don't want to do anything that I didn't do during my pregnancy I don't want to let go :(
  • I get that. I cried over my body the other day, too--I've never been so sad over loosing weight. I cried when I put on my pre-pregnancy jeans. I cried when I tried on clothing that I was waiting to wear on my post-baby body. I cried when the bump told me that this was "week 39 of pregnancy." I cry a few times a day. I am new to this board, and I lost my boy at 37w4d. And it's so hard.
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  • Today I cried because my daughter asked me to sing "Rainbow Connection," which is pretty much her song.  It's the song I've sung to her since the day she was born.  I'm very music-centric and have songs that remind me of moments and people that are important to me.  I realized I would never have that with this baby.  There will never be those moments when I sing "that song" and my baby is soothed and all feels right with the world.
  • I cried today because I just found out my friend is pregnant. And then cried more because I felt like a horrible person for feeling that way.
  • Today I cried because its my birthday. We had an ultrasound on Friday and found out its an irregular sac and will miscarry for the 3rd time. I prayed so hard for this to be it for this to be a great gift. Now all im getting are texts on messages on fb because no one truly knows what im going through and all i can do is pretend its a great day.
  • Because I still can't work out after d and c and the couple of pounds I gained pregnant are still on me . They serve as a constant reminder of what I lost . I just want to workout and feel like my self again . Then I receive a box of mrs fields cookies with the sweetest condolence note from my friend. Now I'm eating cookies and crying . So crazy .
  • Just had to go to hospital to get a blood draw because I have an OB appointment tomorrow and need to see if HCG is going down as expected. As I was leaving there was a new dad bringing in a baby car seat presumably to pick up new baby and take it home. I've been okay this weekend, but that got me. 
  • @sandiego715
    First I wanted to say happy birthday, even though I know it's not a happy one for you. I'm so sorry for your loss and just know your not alone we all feel the way you do and understand how it's hard. You don't have to pretend for anything or anyone you deserve to be sad and upset and deserve all the time you need to grieve. I'm sorry things didn't go how you wanted and deserved. I hope your day gets better and just know we're all here for you :x
    And @marie2409 I totally get that when I was leaving the hospital from an overnight stay after I misscarried they wheeled me out in the wheel chair right by the babies. And I had to see new borns and hear the happy birthday song when one was born it was so hard so I completly understand. I'm so sorry for your loss as well. Love and hugs to you.
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  • indy_chicindy_chic member
    edited October 2015
    I cry every day. Every.Single.Day. But today I walked my son to school - my first time alone, without my husband. I cried because I had pictured this day differently; with a baby girl in a stroller.
    It has been 3 weeks since we lost her @ 40 weeks (cord). She would be 3 weeks old :( Life is very unfair sometimes and right now is the most unfair of all!! My heart hurts!



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  • This is my fist day back at work, they have been very kind and supportive, they are letting me ease back into things and only come back for half my shift for the first week.
    I was doing okay, I even talked to the woman next to me who just had her baby and came back for the first day today to, I thought "okay I got this. I didn't cry at that so I will be fine"
    Then I saw the other Lady who is pregnant, and must be due at any moment b/c her bump is very big and it looks like she has "dropped".
    I didn't outright cry b/c I am at work, but there were tears and a feeling of wanting to transport home, grab my teddy bear(helps to hold it when I am missing Danny) and cry.
  • Today I cried because I woke up and wasn't pregnant anymore. I cried again when my husband put his hand on my stomach like he did when I was pregnant. Today is emotionally the worst and it physically sucks, too. Cramps are so painful.
    Me: 29, DH: 31
    Married: October 2014
    Began TTC: April 2015
    BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
    BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
    BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17 <3
    BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19. 


  • Made the mistake of looking at facebook and the top post was a girl from high school who gave birth last night posting pictures of the baby. Happy for her but also filled with sadness, jealousy, and impatience.  
  • when my husband and I went to the pumpkin patch on the local farm. There was another couple there with a one year old red haired baby. They asked us to take their photo. My husband has bright red hair and we always perked up when we saw red haired baby. It was hard. I was trying really hard to enjoy myself at the farm, my husband was taking me there to cheer me up, after all. But I felt empty...homesick somehow. 
    Due with rainbow rainbow rainbow baby on 9/29/17
    It's been a long road- Let's just say that! 
  • mskeenanmskeenan member
    edited October 2015
    I know it sounds insane but I cry because I feel like my baby is an angel that is still with me . I feel a presence with me- that feeling you have when you are alone but feel like something is in the room. It makes me happy cry and sad cry . I view my pregnancy as an incredible blessing but it's so painful at the same time bc I want to experience my baby in the flesh . I will always feel connected to her and hope we can be reunited some day . I love her .

    **BFP and loss warning**

    Me: 29
    DH: 29
    Us: Married Valentine's Day, 2015
    DH: No issues.
    Me: PCOS, unexplained infertility (whatever that means!!)
    June 2015 Medicated TI cycle: BFN
    July 2015:  Medicated TI cycle: BFN
    August 2015: IUI: BFP. Chemical pregnancy :(
    October 2015: IUI: BFN
    January 2016: Egg retrieval: 10 frozen embryos!
    March 2016: FET Cycle- 2 embryos transferred!: BFP !
  • I was fine. I went trick or treating with my niece and nephew. We had fun!

    Then I got home and looked at Facebook. Saw all the happy families and their kids in costumes and my couple prego friends in prego costumes. Now I'm crying in the shower.
  • @valleric
    My heart hurts for you, prayers for you. Everything will be okay. Hugs to you sweet girl
  • I cried today because we have to put my precious dog down tomorrow who has been ill since just after my d&c. I feel nothing is going right, I'm empty and hurt. My world crumbled when I came home to a grave that has been dug for my doggie and began to think about my own baby and the way we had to part so briefly and suddenly. It hurts will it ever stop
  • @Ciarad6
    You poor thing. I am so so sorry. I promise you things will get better and yes the pain and hurting will ease and eventually stop. God gives toughest times to his strongest soldiers. When it rains it pours but it always clears up. I know you can't see anything getting better right now but just know that they are both always with you still. And take it day by day and take care of yourself and most importantly don't feel bad, take all the time you need to heal and grieve you deserve that. But know you are not alone and we are all here for you and to stand by everyone's side in the hard times we are all facing. Love and hugs to you :x
  • I cried today after putting a pair of pants on that weren't maternity pants.

    I had my 12-week U/S last Thursday in which I found out that my baby stopped growing at 9-weeks and had no heartbeat. I was devastated.

    I had a D&C done last Friday. Waking up and going to bed have been the hardest times during the past few days.
  • Because my husbands great aunt asked when we were having kids and said " I hope I get to meet the little girl you will have before I die " and then I cried because I started bleeding after sex for the first time post d and c. And then again when I took a pregnancy test to see if my hormones were going down and it was a raging big fat positive and now I'm scared I have retained tissue or that I'll never get my period again .
  • mommyTARDISmommyTARDIS member
    edited November 2015
    ....I am stressed about work. I don't hate my job like I have hated other jobs, but I wish I could leave it. Before my LO was something that helped me keep going, but now that he is gone, it's really hard.
  • I start to cry whenever anyone asks how I'm doing. We told everyone and I don't regret that, but I just can't hold it together when friends who actually care ask how I'm doing right now. Ugh.
  • lilyaster said:

    I start to cry whenever anyone asks how I'm doing. We told everyone and I don't regret that, but I just can't hold it together when friends who actually care ask how I'm doing right now. Ugh.

    I know, I really don't know what to say to that question. I am dreading going back to work tomorrow and dealing with it from my boss and coworker- only ones that knew. I had a variety of responses from close friends, one just listened, one gave me some space but told me she was there for me, the third just didn't understand why and kept asking me if it was normal or what I did...(I had two mcs). So some helped some didn't.
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    BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
    BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks; 
    BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016 

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  • @klauerinaking I hope your first day back went okay. I'm sure it was hard. I'm not working right now so it's easier to stay in my cocoon, but my dh has had a tough time going back to work. It just stinks.
  • @lilyaster, I almost made it the whole day without crying. I had a 1x1 convo with my coworker and waterworks started around 4pm. She is a wonderful person and was very kind, so it was not bad. I hope tomorrow is better.
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    BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
    BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks; 
    BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016 

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  • I cried because I made myself a cup of regular coffee... I know it's not significant but I had only found out I was pregnant last Tuesday and this Monday I found out that my baby was gone before I even knew she was there... in that time I stopped drinking caffeine and did everything I was supposed to do... but there was nothing... so realizing I could go back to drinking coffee and everything I was doing before I found out kills me...
  • I cried today because I just found out yesterday I miscarried my second child. Should have been my 11 week screening, but instead found out the baby died weeks ago and hadn't grown more than a few days since my last ultrasound. I feel like a fool having walked around these last few weeks blissfully unaware of what had happened.

    I went to work today initially grateful for the distraction, but wound up just barely pretending I wasn't walking around with a child still inside me that has no heartbeat. I have 2 more days of work to go before my scheduled d&c. I'll probably cry a lot more.

    And to make matters worse, This month would have been my due date for my first pregnancy.

    Thanks for listening.
  • jvillahozjvillahoz member
    edited November 2015
  • Honestly? Because I saw a diaper commercial and, for the first time since saturday, I didn't cry. This made me feel guilty and I burst into tears immediately.
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  • I just learned yesterday that my baby did not have a heartbeat and stopped growing after my last appointment. Everything makes me cry. Even when I look at myself in the mirror, I cry. For the last 6 weeks I have been looking at a pregnant woman and now it hurts to not see that same woman. I have not had my D&C Yet so every pain and cramp that I feel is another reminder. I had to call the fetal specialist to cancel my appointment and could barely get the words out. I pray and hope that this will get easier soon.
  • @Knottie1446044602
    I am so sorry for your loss, but I totally understand where your coming from I also did the same. Everything I stopped doing from the pregnancy and got to do again after the mc, has been upsetting me. I don't want to do anything different other than what I did while I was pregnant. I never want to let go :( hugs and prayers for you.
  • Love and hugs to all the ladies on here. We are in this together, and we WILL make it.
  • @Knottie1446044602 And @babymama03252016 I feel the same way! I went to Starbucks today and could not bring myself to get coffee so I got hot chocolate. I don't miss anything that I could not eat or drink! I miss my baby.......heart crushed.
  • @jennyg628
    I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and prayers that everything gets better for you.
  • Yesterday I cried because I opened the mailbox and I received my Bella band and button extenders...I saved them in there guest room as I won't need them. I ordered them Thursday last week before my 9w u/s friday..monday had d&c and Thursday received the package...perfect timing.....
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    BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
    BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks; 
    BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016 

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  • Because the earliest I would have a baby in my arms will be a year from now, if at all.

    That the age gap between my son and a future child is getting big. Honestly, who cares, but it bothers me.

    That originally I thought the holidays would be a nice distraction, but now it just seems depressing.

    That I am still walking around with a baby who isn't alive inside me.
  • Because my due date is Sunday, and my belly has been empty since 14 weeks. A girl who was due at the same time as me has announced her birth on Facebook.
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  • Because I had my 2 week follow up post D&C and here are all these pregnant women in the office....I mean, obviously, but it's still hard! Bummer.
  • Because my best friend of 39 years is having her baby shower today. We were both so excited to be pregnant at the same time both for the first time at 41 years old. I go for my D&C in 2 days.
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