Going back to work?

bkbistro321

Today is my first day back to work after my m/c last week.  A couple people at my office know what happened, since I was 13 weeks along and almost ready to tell everyone my happy news (until my news turned sad). 

Now that I'm back today, it just feels so strange.  I was out of the office for a week and I don't know which of my coworkers know everything now and which don't.  I'm pretty sure people talk or maybe guessed what was wrong, but honestly, now I have no idea who knows and who doesn't know.  ...Its just so difficult to put on a happy face or to even focus for that matter. People say "welcome back" or "I'm sorry" and yet I have no idea how to respond to them after going through what I did.  It's like they may have some idea or not... or they just don't want to bring up too much to make me feel awkward. They are all they're happy normal selves and yet my heart is aching and feel like I could burst into tears! Seeing people be happy makes this all so much harder...

How are you supposed to get through this weird grey area of grieving while having to resume your normal life???  Anyone else feel this conflict?  Please tell me it gets better...

linnea625

I'm in the exact same boat as you. My boss gave me the option to work from home if I wanted, but I decided to come back to the office today. The morning was a little rough since only 2 people know what happened. By the afternoon it was better, getting back into the routine of working and being around my colleagues was good for me. My boss had told most of the team something vague like that I had a personal emergency to take care of last week and that I didn't want to talk about it, so no one asked what happened (except for one guy who didn't get the memo and thought I was just on vacation). Everyone will deal with it differently, but for me it was good to go back to work, even if I did cry a little this morning.

bntfroggie

I had told the whole office of my pregnancy, so when I miscarried I had a co-worker tell everyone, and she basically told them not to talk to me about it, which was weird because I didn't want to just forget about it completely.  So if I bring it up co-workers are happy to listen otherwise they do not bring it up to me.

carrieandr

I'm self-employed and work from home, so I just let my clients know I would be out of the office for a day.  I didn't tell them I was getting a d&e, so one of them said "I hope you have a fun Friday off!"  Ugh. 

On a side note, I do have two fun trips planned in the next two months, which is giving me something to look forward to.  It's helping to bring me out of my slump.