Thank you everyone for your very kind words and support. My ultrasound today showed that I lost my baby last night. I have to have a D and C in the morning because I didn't pass everything.
I'm done. I can't ever go through this again. My heart is broken again. I'm going to be thankful for my one miracle and try to work through this grief. I'm permanently saying goodbye to any thought of giving her a sibling. I don't know why life had to put me through this again.
I wish you all the very best. xoxo
Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
I am so so sorry. I know the pain you're feeling and it's awful. Be kind to yourself and let your daughter give you strength. When we lost our baby girl in 2011.. I swear my son saved my life. He gave me a reason to be strong and to smile. He helped me through more than anything else did. Lots of prayers and hugs to you and your family.
Oh, Guennie. I cried when I read this this morning. I am so very sorry for your loss. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. So very, very sorry.
TTC since 10/09
Me-43 DH-44
RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF
1/11 New RE
AMA and DOR-DH low motility
IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4.
PAIF/SAIF welcome
Me 43 DH 48 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. *5th cycle after loss 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12 ** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy born 5/6/2013!
TTC #2, bpf 1/15/15 Baby Girl due Oct 1! She's here, 9/26/2015!
@Guennie I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Hold you DD close and love her; she will help you through this. Thank you for being such a kind friend to me on our online community. Take care.
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
I am very sorry. I felt very similar to how you are feeling when I had a miscarriage after my 2nd child. I was sort of ignorant then and never imagined I could ever have a miscarriage. When I did it completely crushed me. I blamed myself. I hated myself for a long time. I swore up and down I would never get pregnant again because I didn't want to go through a possible loss. And to be honest I wanted to punish myself for losing that baby. A few months went by and I was able to admit to myself I really really wanted another child and I figured that once I had a baby in my arms it would make the road, no matter how rough, to get there all worth it. And I was right too. So take some time and let yourself grieve your loss for a while. Then keep yourself open to changing your mind. I am so glad I did
Thank you, you are all so kind. I know it's going to take some time to work through this. I am holding my daughter extra close. I've had a lot of tears, I don't understand why I had to go through this again. I will never have any answers.
I truly wish you all the best and I hope you will come join us in Parenting 35 when your little ones arrive. Take good care of yourselves.
Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
While none of us can say why this has happened (let alone, again), I can sincerely say that I empathize and wish you the best-- whatever your decisions are in the future.
I am so very, very sorry for your loss. Really there are no words. I had a miscarriage 3 years ago at 40. I know what you mean by not going through it again. Please take good care of yourself and know prayers and healing wishes are with you. You will get through this.
Re: Leaving you (loss mentioned)
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
We love and miss you Timothy
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
9/1998 - Ectopic :: 4/2001 - M/C :: 8/2006 - Ectopic :: 4/2007 - M/C :: 8/2008 - Ectopic
4/2010 - DD
4/2012 - M/C
6/2014 - Surprise Pregnancy at 42 yrs old! EDD 2/16/2015
6/9 +HPT :: 6/10 hCG 383 :: 6/12 hCG 1190 :: 6/17 hCG 8224, Prog 26.4
6/24 U/S #1 showing 6w2d CRL .43cm w/HB! :: 7/7 U/S #2 CRL 1.73cm w/strong HB!!
7/31 NT Scan U/S #3 CRL 49mm, HB160 | MaterniT21 - Negative!! TEAM PINK
9/2 - AFP Panel - Negative | U/S #4 HB150
10/1 Anatomy U/S #5 | HB 134 | CPCs found, Trisomy 18 ruled out w/Mat21 on 7/31 | all other development normal!
11/24 - Glucose was normal at 94
1/12 BPP/Growth U/S #9 HB 129, weighs 5lb 12oz already w/ 4 weeks to go!!
1/20 BPP/Growth U/S#10 HB 155, weight 6lb 9oz :: 1/26 BPP U/S#11 HB153 :: 2/2 BPP U/S #12 HB 137 :: 2/9 BPP U/S #13 HB 150
Elizabeth 5yrs old Jane 3yrs old
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness." - Eleanor Roosevelt
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Me 43 DH 48 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. *5th cycle after loss 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy born 5/6/2013!
TTC #2, bpf 1/15/15 Baby Girl due Oct 1! She's here, 9/26/2015!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
I truly wish you all the best and I hope you will come join us in Parenting 35 when your little ones arrive. Take good care of yourselves.
**siggy warning**
Current Age 35, DH 33
Married 9/2011
BFP 8/2012, Miscarried 9/2012
BFP 9/2012, DS 6/2013
BFP 6/2014, Miscarried 7/2014
BFP 7/2014, DD 4/2015