Sad day (loss mentioned)

Danni_Girl

Our little girl just couldn't fight anymore and we found out yesterday that we lost her.
She would have been 23 weeks 6 days.

Now we are at the hospital, I was induced over 2 hours ago and we wait.

We knew there was a high chance we would lose her so this is not a shock, and although we are trying to be a light hearted as possible to get through today, I know once she arrives it's going to be the hardest moment.

2nd worst day of my life is unfortunately today, but at least I know her grandpa is in heaven taking care of her right now.

ATXmommas

I am so, so sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. I hope her delivery is smooth and peaceful and that you have as much time with her as you need afterwards. Just lots of support and warm thoughts to you. My heart aches for you today.

KH826

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My heart is aching for you. Please lean on us for support if you need to, we are all here for you. Sending as much support your way as I possible can. Please take care...

JGY

I am so so sorry to read this.  She was such a fighter, but I'm glad to hear that you know she is being watched over.  I wish you the most peaceful of deliveries and I know you will cherish the moments that you have with her today.

trisholio

I am so sorry, I hope things go as smoothly as possible. Lots of positive thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

LolaBelle515

Hearts shatter for and with you around our community today.  Hugs and prayers for you as you hold your daughter today.

StacyLH24

I am so sorry for your loss. I have been hoping for a miracle turn around for your baby girl. I hope her birth goes smoothly and that you are able to cherish your fleeting time with her. We are all here for you.

JennaandBetsy

I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and thoughts are with you today during this difficult time.

Himee33

I'm so sorry for your loss My heart is aching for you. Please know we are all here for you and will continue to keep you in our thoughts.

2MamazInSeattle

Oh I'm so sorry. I am glad you had the chance to love her little soul for this long, though it wasn't long enough I know. You are wonderful parents to your little girl. Hugs, I hope things go quickly for you. Please let us know her name so we can honor her life!

bfonz619

I am so sorry for your tremendous loss.  I cannot imagine being in your position and how difficult it must be.  I admire your strength and wish you nothing but the best in the hours of ahead.

Officerofthelaw

I'm so very sorry about your loss. You're in my thoughts.

Amber&Reva

I am so very sorry for your loss.  I hope your induction goes smoothly.  The one thing I wish I had done was taken some family photos as keepsakes.  You and your family will be in my T&Ps.

redrockmama

I'm so sorry, I've been thinking about you 3 a lot and so sad to hear this news. Many hugs to you in this difficult time. 

firstcomeslove2013

Please take care of yourself...we are here if you need anything. I am so sorry for your loss.

2momsinCA

I'm so sad to read this. There really are no words. I hope you find peace in your grief over the coming days and weeks. Your little girl will always be with you in your heart.

Jazibel

I am so so sorry for your loss. I wish you and your family a peaceful birth and moments with your little girl. I hope you are able to take the time today and everyday to heal your heart and cherish your memories.

Danni_Girl

Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes.

Yesterday was one of the longest days of my life, but yet it flew by too. So weird.

I was induced at 9:45am, water broke around 10:30pm and Baby Girl was delivered at 11:24pm. I was given morphine later in the day when the cramping became worse, I slept for a few hours and that's when the contractions started. It was crazy how fast everything went after that.

Once she was delivered we asked the nurse to described how she looked as we knew she would be swollen from the hydrops, hygromas and being under developed. We decided after learning that she was so swollen that it was hard to make out any facial features that we would rather remember the perfect little baby we saw in the ultrasounds. Instead we held her for hours after she was wrapped in her blankets.

We also decided to name her what we've been calling her this whole time, Baby Girl B. Because we never saw her face we didn't feel comfortable naming her.

Baby Girl will be cremated in the next few days and she will be back with us.

StacyLH24

Again, I am so sorry for your loss of Baby Girl.  I am glad that you were able to have control over some of your choices and that you and your wife were able to decide how things went after her birth. 

ball.and.chain

I'm glad you were able to hold her.  Thinking of you in this difficult time.

JGY

I am so glad that you were able to spend that special time with Baby Girl B, and that she will be back with you soon. Sending tons of love your way, you brave Mamas.

firstcomeslove2013

You are so brave and my thoughts are with you. Stay strong and come to us if you need support. We are here.

KH826

You are so incredibly brave and strong. Sending you as much support as possible. You will continue to be in my thoughts... please do not hesitate to let all of us know what you need. We are here to support you through this incredibly difficult time.

wishiwaspreggo

I am so very sorry for your loss I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

bfonz619

Again, I am very, very sorry for your loss.  I cannot imagine being in your position and admire your strength.  I am glad you were able to hold her and hope that you will soon find peace.  Take care of yourself.  My heart goes out to you.

Amber&Reva

I am so sorry for your loss.  Cherish the memory of your little girl.  Stay strong although the pain never goes away it does get easier with time.  You and your wife are both very strong for going through this along with your little baby who was clearly a fighter and defied all odds.

Jazibel

I admire your courage to face events as they unfolded with openness and love. May Baby Girl B rest in peace. Much love to you and your family too during this time.

Esquette

My heart goes out to you.  Take the time you need to grieve your loss, and be good to yourselves.

Karlamo

I'm sorry for your loss.  I know that this has been said already but you are INCREDIBLY STRONG!  I'm glad you had your time with her.  I pray that you and your partner have moments of peace while you grieve your loss. 

Twochickshavinachick

So sorry to hear of your loss. We are thinking of you.

Danni_Girl

Hello all,
Life has been a mess, but I know we will be okay. My Mom is here for Christmas, so that is helping.

Our Baby Girl came home to us today, so that has made us a little happier to have her back. We missed our Baby Girl.

Now I just wish my body would stop hating me. The physical pain is not helping the mental pain at all, but it's something I have to work through.

The penguin in the pic is her little buddy and he's going to sit with her every Christmas. Heck, he might stay out all year long.

StacyLH24

@Danni_Girl‌ - that is beautiful. I'm glad that she is back with you and that she has a little buddy. I hope your healing continues, both mentally and physically.

2MamazInSeattle

Thinking of you lots. I'm glad she's with you now. Big hugs.

ATXmommas

I'm glad your girl is home with you with a good friend by her side.  Will continue to think about you as you begin to heal, both physically and emotionally.  I'm glad your mom is with you for the holidays.

healz413

I'm so sorry about your loss. It is such a horrible thing that no one should have to go through. I'm glad that you have your daughter home with you know. We have our daughters Tavin and Casey's ashes in a little wooden box on our windowsill with a number of other tributes to them. It seems so right that they should be home with us. Sending love and comfort to you during the holiday season. I hope you're able to find space to grieve as you need to and that the expectations around you putting on a happy face for the sake of everyone else are manageable.

Amber&Reva

As hard as it was bringing Brynlee home that way it also was slightly healing because I knew she was home.  The idea of not bringing her home was devastating.  Continue to heal together it is a long process the loss of a child is something nobody should have to go through.  I also think that the penguin is a perfect friend for your Baby Girl.