Hello ladies- I am sure most of the newer mommies do not recognize me as I have been MIA for a while. In 13 days it will be our 3rd angelversary of losing our baby girl Sydney. Yes 3 whole years how have I lived almost 3 years with out my baby girl. I truly have no idea. I have to say that some days are a bit easier than others but the whole month of September is the worst every single year.
I have since had a rainbow baby she will be 2 in November and to see her grow older is a constant reminder that Sydney is gone and not growing up with her and her siblings. It sucks to be a loss mom. I find strength in the bond I share with my fellow loss moms locally in my loss groups I attend monthly.
I know the day to day struggle you all feel. I am alive and living each day somehow almost 3 years out. I hope and wish peace for all in your times of need. You are not alone!!
Love to all-
Heather
Re: Moving closer to the 3 year angelversary
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Thanks for checking in with us It is nice to see someone a little further out that is still hurting, but making it.
Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38
Married 5/2010
January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks
February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus
February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks
My chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/42fd32
I just passed two years with Devon, and it feels so surreal that I'm still standing at this point, that I'm still living when I wasn't quite sure how I would be able to get through each day without him. Our rainbow will be 1 in January, so I get feeling the happiness of watching your rainbow grow, but the sadness in knowing that you won't have that with your angel. It's beautiful and heartbreaking, all at once.
It's so good to "see" you! I can't believe Trinity is almost 2! I'll be thinking of you and your sweet Sydney for the rest of this month. **hugs**
TTC since 10/2010
IUIs # 1-5 = BFFN
IVF # 1(July 2012) = BFN
IVF # 2 (November 2012) = BFP (MIssed MC D&C @ 8w3d on 1/10/13)
I am thinking of you as you pass the third angelversary of losing your daughter. I struggle every day and I know I will feel the same way you do in 1 1/2 years. Sending you lots of hugs.
Ava's Story
BFP#2 10/18/13 Blighted ovum 11/25/13
BFP #3 1/31/14 EDD 10/18/14 -- It's a GIRL!
Big hugs, thanks for checking in
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
**All AL Welcome**
Thank you for checking in! It's confronting to hear from someone who still loves and misses their angel, but is getting by. From my perspective, that's all I ask of myself.