Wtf dad and 'wife'? Once again you've proven yourselves unworthy of respect. Making Abuela cry and trying to tell my uncle and me that you don't ever value our opinions and thoughts. Well, I'm done trying to fix our relationship while you don't find me worthy of your time and respect.
Love 2010 | Marriage 2011 | TTC #1 since 2012 PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
You claimed you felt hot and sick to your stomach last night once we figure out you're missing an important meeting and are at your mom's instead? She may or may not have food and may or may not help you with anything. Then you show up at our house before 7am, only to hide in your room and fall asleep before we get up and head to work.
Are you really sick or are you lying and hiding again?
Btw, quit being a jerk to your dad, who has spent thousands of dollars to try to save your ass.
IVF#1 (w/ICSI): BCP 9/9-9/23. Gonal-F, Ganirelix, Low-dose HCG (antagonist protocol). 41R/35M/32F... 2 transferred on 10/14, 14 frosties! On cabergoline to help avoid OHSS. BFN, possibly because of 90% drop in estrogen and progesterone a few days after ET.
FET#1: Transferring 2 on January 8. BFP! beta#1 (1/17): 408, beta#2 (1/20): 1310, first u/s scheduled 2/5
WTF MIL. I get that you are bat shat crazy, but you have been told 1 billion + times that you have severe heart and lung disease and need to quit smoking, eat better and exercise. Well congrats, you have now smoked and laid your ass on the couch eating fast food into a complex open heart surgery with valve replacements. H is terrified you are going to die on the table and is contemplating moving you in with us to recover after the surgery. I can deal with your needy, whiny,drama filled antics from afar and in limited capacity, but now they may be under my own roof. There is not enough wine to deal with her whine.
****SIGGY WARNING****
Hashimoto's with irregular cycles DH- 37 Severe oligoasthenoteratozoospermia
TTC since May 2012
HSG- all clear
March 2014 - RE appt. April 2014- Saline sono all's good, terrible SA results - 8 sperm found all abnormal May 2014- Fert Urology- Bilateral varicoceles, recommend Donor Sperm
Thank god WTF Wednesday is here today. I don't know what it is about Wednesdays, but they SUCK.
So my SIL knows a bit about what's going on with our infertility stuff (I guess my DH had talked to her about it and then she has asked me a bit about it. Nothing in detail, but she knows were getting treatment and she now knows were doing injects, etc...). So she texts me today to ask when my next Dr appt is, we're talking about how expensive it can be, she tells me her friend is getting fertility treatments and has had 3 IUI's and none of them stuck....and what is the next text she sends me?
"Dh and I are talking about maybe start trying again. Maybe's we'll start this month since you're getting your IUI. Wouldn't that be exciting to be pregnant together?!"
I lost it. Bawling in my car. There are so many things wrong with that text. I immediately came back here to lurk on the board to feel better but then had to write it all out.
Ugh. Is work over? I need a drink. Stat.
***Signature/Ticker Warning***
March 2008 - DD born - no issues conceiving (surprise). Limited issues during pregnancy/delivery. June 2011 - Married DH. June 2013 - Diagnosis of Endometriosis and PCOS (approximate). December 2013 - First cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN January 2014 - 2nd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN February 2014 - 3rd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN March 2014 - Took month off to prep for surgery April 2014 - Laporoscopy for endo. Unable to remove endo due to too close of proximity to ureter. HSG done as well. Fillopian tubes open. May 2014 - 1st round of Femara. Positive OPK. BFN. June 2014 - 2nd round of Femara. Moved to RE to have CD10 Follicular U/S. No Follies in left ovary. 5 follies in right. Largest follie 8mm, 1 7mm, 2 3mm, 1 2mm. Positive OPK on day of U/S. BFN. DH has SA done at this time - All results within normal limits. July 2014 - 3rd round of Femara. CD10 Follicular U/S. No follies in left ovary. 7 follies in right. 1 20mm, 1 12mm, 1 10mm, 4 <5mm. Scheduled for IUI. Canceled due to low estrogen level of 145. TI this month. Prepping for Injectables next month. BFN. August 2014 - CD3 BW Normal. Injectables not happening because of stupid miscommunication about "required injectables class." Taking class this month. No medication. TI for the month. SIS scheduled for 8/7/14. SIS results - "I have a beautiful uterus." Huzzah! September 2014 - Cycle cancelled due to stupid AF coming early and making my IUI run in to DH's business trip. Try again next month. October 2014 - Injects with IUI cycle. 75U 5 days. Estrogen at 36. Bumped up to 125 for 4 days. Estrogen 105. Bumped up to 225. Ganirelix for 2 days. 4 mature follies. Triggered 10/9. IUI 10/10. BFP 10/24/2014. Beta #1 - 178 Beta #2 - 398. U/S 11/7/14- TWINS!!!!
WTF coworker. She has NO sense of personal space. If there's a stray hair on my dress, she'll pick at it. If there is something in my hair, she'll groom me.
Get the fuck out of my space
No. No No No No NO. I HATE people being in my space. I would get white girl crazy on that co-worker fast. Don't touch me.....stranger danger....all of that.
***Signature/Ticker Warning***
March 2008 - DD born - no issues conceiving (surprise). Limited issues during pregnancy/delivery. June 2011 - Married DH. June 2013 - Diagnosis of Endometriosis and PCOS (approximate). December 2013 - First cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN January 2014 - 2nd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN February 2014 - 3rd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN March 2014 - Took month off to prep for surgery April 2014 - Laporoscopy for endo. Unable to remove endo due to too close of proximity to ureter. HSG done as well. Fillopian tubes open. May 2014 - 1st round of Femara. Positive OPK. BFN. June 2014 - 2nd round of Femara. Moved to RE to have CD10 Follicular U/S. No Follies in left ovary. 5 follies in right. Largest follie 8mm, 1 7mm, 2 3mm, 1 2mm. Positive OPK on day of U/S. BFN. DH has SA done at this time - All results within normal limits. July 2014 - 3rd round of Femara. CD10 Follicular U/S. No follies in left ovary. 7 follies in right. 1 20mm, 1 12mm, 1 10mm, 4 <5mm. Scheduled for IUI. Canceled due to low estrogen level of 145. TI this month. Prepping for Injectables next month. BFN. August 2014 - CD3 BW Normal. Injectables not happening because of stupid miscommunication about "required injectables class." Taking class this month. No medication. TI for the month. SIS scheduled for 8/7/14. SIS results - "I have a beautiful uterus." Huzzah! September 2014 - Cycle cancelled due to stupid AF coming early and making my IUI run in to DH's business trip. Try again next month. October 2014 - Injects with IUI cycle. 75U 5 days. Estrogen at 36. Bumped up to 125 for 4 days. Estrogen 105. Bumped up to 225. Ganirelix for 2 days. 4 mature follies. Triggered 10/9. IUI 10/10. BFP 10/24/2014. Beta #1 - 178 Beta #2 - 398. U/S 11/7/14- TWINS!!!!
No I do not want to spend hours listening to your ridiculous first world problems that could wait be solved if you had common sense. Some of us have real effing problems over here like the black hole of despair known as IF
My WTF isn't nearly as bad as some of the ones I just read, I think we need a group (((((HUG)))))
WTF???? I thought today was Thursday, and not Wednesday. Can my days to my FET get any more fucking slower??? I started IVF#1 5-3 and still haven't gotten to do a ET.
WTF coworker. She has NO sense of personal space. If there's a stray hair on my dress, she'll pick at it. If there is something in my hair, she'll groom me.
Get the fuck out of my space
Ick. That would make me incredibly uncomfortable! I would actually start running away if she came toward me!
________ ME: 34, Atypical PCOS (lean, no O without meds) + unexplained; DH: 33, mildly low motility 09/2012: Start TTC after stopping NuvaRing. No cycles seemed to occur. 01/2013 - 05/2013: Tried Provera to "jumpstart" cycles. No luck. 12/2013- 01/2014: Clomid 50mg - no big follies, stepped to 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel (HCG trigger), IUI #1 completed - BFN 02/2014: Clomid 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel trigger, IUI #2 completed, Crinone - BFN 03/2014: Clomid 100mg -no big follies on 1st round, 2nd round prescribed;One mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #3completed, Crinone - BFN 04/2014-05/2014: Letrozole 5mg + Ovidrel HG to prep for IUI #4 switched to TI, Crinone - BFN 05/2014-06/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #4.1 completed, Crinone - BFN 07/2014-08/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #5 completed, Crinone - BFN 09/2014-10/2014: IVF Prep - Insurance requires IUI #6; Letrozole 5mg -no big follies 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; IUI #6, Crinone - BFN 11/2014: "Break" - Letrozole 5mg to cycle before prepping for IVF - successfully O'ed, but BFN 12/2014: Extending 'break' one more Letrozole-only TI cycle for mental health break - BFN 01/2015-02/2015: Prep for IVF - BCP then Gonal-F, Ganirelex, Novarel trigger; ER scheduled 2/11! http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/4cf919 PAIF/SAIF Welcome.
December 3T Siggy Challenge: Favorite Holiday Movie
Wtf: 8/20 BFN this morning and what would have been my mom's 63rd birthday. She passed away of breast cancer three years ago and it still feels like yesterday. I miss my mommy.
Me: +35 DH: +35
TTC: Since January 2013
DX: PCOS. Severe Endometriosis, Unicornuate Uterus w/only left tube and left ovary, Pedunculated fibroid (on the outside of uterus) and Anovulation. All conditions diagnosed 8/13
TX: Metformin
DH DX: MFI - low morphology, low motility
Ultrasound shows both kidneys in spite of UU.
HSG showed clear tube on the left side.
Lap Surgery performed 1/9/14 to remove fibroid and endo (Stage 3)
IUI# 1 June 2014 started 100 mg of Clomid - 7dpiui Progesterone: 13: BFN
IUI#2 July 2014 started 100 mg of Clomid - 7dpiui Progesterone: 5.75: BFN
Natural Cycle - so shocked to be in 2WW - 7dpo Progesterone: 15.5: BFN
Working with new RE starting injectables in late August.
Wtf: 8/20
BFN this morning and what would have been my mom's 63rd birthday. She passed away of breast cancer three years ago and it still feels like yesterday. I miss my mommy.
My mom passed about 3 1/2 years ago and I still get caught up in flashbacks with certain triggers (like her birthday). I had a moment the other day when my dad and his new wife were being assholes and I kept thinking damn, if I get a BFP, it's not even going to be fun to tell them because I don't give a shit what they think. And then, of course, I grieved the loss of the moment to tell my mom my BFP because I was on a downward spiral at the moment. Alcohol helps. HUGS!
Love 2010 | Marriage 2011 | TTC #1 since 2012 PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
@TTCBabyJ I'm sorry you have to face that. I lost my dad to brain cancer four years ago at 51. Though the pain has dulled with time, I still miss him. There are some things I know I won't forget and many I hope I won't forget. I remember him every time I wish I had a solid person to ask for advice. My mom is very supportive, but she does not have the solidity and reason that my dad did. (Which is why he and I butted heads so much. I'm just like him :-) )
IVF#1 (w/ICSI): BCP 9/9-9/23. Gonal-F, Ganirelix, Low-dose HCG (antagonist protocol). 41R/35M/32F... 2 transferred on 10/14, 14 frosties! On cabergoline to help avoid OHSS. BFN, possibly because of 90% drop in estrogen and progesterone a few days after ET.
FET#1: Transferring 2 on January 8. BFP! beta#1 (1/17): 408, beta#2 (1/20): 1310, first u/s scheduled 2/5
@TTCBabyJ I'm so sorry (((hugs))) and for all those that have lost a parent.
My mom died almost 15 years ago from colon cancer when she was 48, I'm not sure if I'd say it gets easier I think you just find other ways to deal with it. My mom died right before Christmas (her favorite holiday) and I still don't like Christmas, but I've finally managed in the last couple of years to put the ornaments on without crying. I still hold resentment when others spend time with their moms, but not nearly as bad. I still hate Mother's Day, but at least I don't cry all day anymore.
**** preg and loss mentioned ****
Last year was the hardest because I was pregnant and due on my moms bday, so I knew it would be my rainbow baby but I still lost it. I found out on the anniversary of her death it was another girl. Sometimes I feel the universe is just out to get me.
Re: WTF Wednesday
TTC since May 2012
HSG- all clear
March 2014 - RE appt.
April 2014- Saline sono all's good, terrible SA results - 8 sperm found all abnormal
May 2014- Fert Urology- Bilateral varicoceles, recommend Donor Sperm
12/2014- Surprise natural BFP EDD 7/31/15 Plan: Starting foster to adoption, natural cycles
PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
Thank god WTF Wednesday is here today. I don't know what it is about Wednesdays, but they SUCK.
So my SIL knows a bit about what's going on with our infertility stuff (I guess my DH had talked to her about it and then she has asked me a bit about it. Nothing in detail, but she knows were getting treatment and she now knows were doing injects, etc...). So she texts me today to ask when my next Dr appt is, we're talking about how expensive it can be, she tells me her friend is getting fertility treatments and has had 3 IUI's and none of them stuck....and what is the next text she sends me?
"Dh and I are talking about maybe start trying again. Maybe's we'll start this month since you're getting your IUI. Wouldn't that be exciting to be pregnant together?!"
I lost it. Bawling in my car. There are so many things wrong with that text. I immediately came back here to lurk on the board to feel better but then had to write it all out.
Ugh. Is work over? I need a drink. Stat.
***Signature/Ticker Warning***
March 2008 - DD born - no issues conceiving (surprise). Limited issues during pregnancy/delivery.
June 2011 - Married DH.
June 2013 - Diagnosis of Endometriosis and PCOS (approximate).
December 2013 - First cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
January 2014 - 2nd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
February 2014 - 3rd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
March 2014 - Took month off to prep for surgery
April 2014 - Laporoscopy for endo. Unable to remove endo due to too close of proximity to ureter. HSG done as well. Fillopian tubes open.
May 2014 - 1st round of Femara. Positive OPK. BFN.
June 2014 - 2nd round of Femara. Moved to RE to have CD10 Follicular U/S. No Follies in left ovary. 5 follies in right. Largest follie 8mm, 1 7mm, 2 3mm, 1 2mm. Positive OPK on day of U/S. BFN. DH has SA done at this time - All results within normal limits.
July 2014 - 3rd round of Femara. CD10 Follicular U/S. No follies in left ovary. 7 follies in right. 1 20mm, 1 12mm, 1 10mm, 4 <5mm. Scheduled for IUI. Canceled due to low estrogen level of 145. TI this month. Prepping for Injectables next month. BFN.
August 2014 - CD3 BW Normal. Injectables not happening because of stupid miscommunication about "required injectables class." Taking class this month. No medication. TI for the month. SIS scheduled for 8/7/14. SIS results - "I have a beautiful uterus." Huzzah!
September 2014 - Cycle cancelled due to stupid AF coming early and making my IUI run in to DH's business trip. Try again next month.
October 2014 - Injects with IUI cycle. 75U 5 days. Estrogen at 36. Bumped up to 125 for 4 days. Estrogen 105. Bumped up to 225. Ganirelix for 2 days. 4 mature follies. Triggered 10/9. IUI 10/10.
BFP 10/24/2014. Beta #1 - 178 Beta #2 - 398. U/S 11/7/14- TWINS!!!!
***Signature/Ticker Warning***
March 2008 - DD born - no issues conceiving (surprise). Limited issues during pregnancy/delivery.
June 2011 - Married DH.
June 2013 - Diagnosis of Endometriosis and PCOS (approximate).
December 2013 - First cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
January 2014 - 2nd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
February 2014 - 3rd Cycle of Clomid - Positive OPK. BFN
March 2014 - Took month off to prep for surgery
April 2014 - Laporoscopy for endo. Unable to remove endo due to too close of proximity to ureter. HSG done as well. Fillopian tubes open.
May 2014 - 1st round of Femara. Positive OPK. BFN.
June 2014 - 2nd round of Femara. Moved to RE to have CD10 Follicular U/S. No Follies in left ovary. 5 follies in right. Largest follie 8mm, 1 7mm, 2 3mm, 1 2mm. Positive OPK on day of U/S. BFN. DH has SA done at this time - All results within normal limits.
July 2014 - 3rd round of Femara. CD10 Follicular U/S. No follies in left ovary. 7 follies in right. 1 20mm, 1 12mm, 1 10mm, 4 <5mm. Scheduled for IUI. Canceled due to low estrogen level of 145. TI this month. Prepping for Injectables next month. BFN.
August 2014 - CD3 BW Normal. Injectables not happening because of stupid miscommunication about "required injectables class." Taking class this month. No medication. TI for the month. SIS scheduled for 8/7/14. SIS results - "I have a beautiful uterus." Huzzah!
September 2014 - Cycle cancelled due to stupid AF coming early and making my IUI run in to DH's business trip. Try again next month.
October 2014 - Injects with IUI cycle. 75U 5 days. Estrogen at 36. Bumped up to 125 for 4 days. Estrogen 105. Bumped up to 225. Ganirelix for 2 days. 4 mature follies. Triggered 10/9. IUI 10/10.
BFP 10/24/2014. Beta #1 - 178 Beta #2 - 398. U/S 11/7/14- TWINS!!!!
TTC #1
Me: AMA, DH: MFI
Official DX - MFI due to Hemochromatosis
IVF #1 Nov. 2014 - ER 11/10 (10R 6M 6F) - ET 11/13
3DT of 3 embies - no frosties - CP = BFFN!!!!
****All Welcome****
NO! I'm so sorry! (((HUGS)))
PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
No I do not want to spend hours listening to your ridiculous first world problems that could wait be solved if you had common sense. Some of us have real effing problems over here like the black hole of despair known as IF
WTF???? I thought today was Thursday, and not Wednesday. Can my days to my FET get any more fucking slower??? I started IVF#1 5-3 and still haven't gotten to do a ET.
ME: 34, Atypical PCOS (lean, no O without meds) + unexplained; DH: 33, mildly low motility
09/2012: Start TTC after stopping NuvaRing. No cycles seemed to occur.
01/2013 - 05/2013: Tried Provera to "jumpstart" cycles. No luck.
12/2013- 01/2014: Clomid 50mg - no big follies, stepped to 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel (HCG trigger), IUI #1 completed - BFN
02/2014: Clomid 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel trigger, IUI #2 completed, Crinone - BFN
03/2014: Clomid 100mg - no big follies on 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; One mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #3 completed, Crinone - BFN
04/2014-05/2014: Letrozole 5mg + Ovidrel HG to prep for IUI #4 switched to TI, Crinone - BFN
05/2014-06/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #4.1 completed, Crinone - BFN
07/2014-08/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #5 completed, Crinone - BFN
09/2014-10/2014: IVF Prep - Insurance requires IUI #6; Letrozole 5mg - no big follies 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; IUI #6, Crinone - BFN
11/2014: "Break" - Letrozole 5mg to cycle before prepping for IVF - successfully O'ed, but BFN
12/2014: Extending 'break' one more Letrozole-only TI cycle for mental health break - BFN
01/2015-02/2015: Prep for IVF - BCP then Gonal-F, Ganirelex, Novarel trigger; ER scheduled 2/11!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/4cf919
PAIF/SAIF Welcome.
BFN this morning and what would have been my mom's 63rd birthday. She passed away of breast cancer three years ago and it still feels like yesterday. I miss my mommy.
ME: 34, Atypical PCOS (lean, no O without meds) + unexplained; DH: 33, mildly low motility
09/2012: Start TTC after stopping NuvaRing. No cycles seemed to occur.
01/2013 - 05/2013: Tried Provera to "jumpstart" cycles. No luck.
12/2013- 01/2014: Clomid 50mg - no big follies, stepped to 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel (HCG trigger), IUI #1 completed - BFN
02/2014: Clomid 100mg; One mature follie, Ovidrel trigger, IUI #2 completed, Crinone - BFN
03/2014: Clomid 100mg - no big follies on 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; One mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #3 completed, Crinone - BFN
04/2014-05/2014: Letrozole 5mg + Ovidrel HG to prep for IUI #4 switched to TI, Crinone - BFN
05/2014-06/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #4.1 completed, Crinone - BFN
07/2014-08/2014: Letrozole 5mg; one mature follie, Ovidrel, IUI #5 completed, Crinone - BFN
09/2014-10/2014: IVF Prep - Insurance requires IUI #6; Letrozole 5mg - no big follies 1st round, 2nd round prescribed; IUI #6, Crinone - BFN
11/2014: "Break" - Letrozole 5mg to cycle before prepping for IVF - successfully O'ed, but BFN
12/2014: Extending 'break' one more Letrozole-only TI cycle for mental health break - BFN
01/2015-02/2015: Prep for IVF - BCP then Gonal-F, Ganirelex, Novarel trigger; ER scheduled 2/11!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/4cf919
PAIF/SAIF Welcome.
PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
ME: 36, on BC since 1996, irregular periods. HUBS: 37, healthy
2001—meet. 2005—marry. 2006—Furbaby is born.
On BC till end of 2009. 2010 NTNP.
New Year’s Eve 2010—BFP?! January 13, 2011—early loss, HCG peaked at 324, no D&C needed.
+++++
Feb 2011-Nov 2012—NTNP
Dec 2012 --present (TTC 20 months) Not even a hint of a BFP
Me: BW, U/S, HSG, HSN normal. AMH 2.33. Hubs: SA normal
+++++
April 2014--IUI #1 Clomid 100 4-8 Follistim 150 9-14, 5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 5/5 1100, BFN
May 2014 ---IUI#2 Clomid 100 3-7 Follistim 150 8-13, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 6/6 547, BFN
June 2014--IUI#3 Follistim 150/225 3-15, 3-5 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 7/11 1450, BFN
July 2014--IUI#4 Follistim 225 2-12, 3 mature follies at trigger, Peak E2 8/12 841, BFN
Breaking till after Christmas, then IVF...taking 4000 mgs daily Inositol and Melatonin 3mg
My mom died almost 15 years ago from colon cancer when she was 48, I'm not sure if I'd say it gets easier I think you just find other ways to deal with it. My mom died right before Christmas (her favorite holiday) and I still don't like Christmas, but I've finally managed in the last couple of years to put the ornaments on without crying. I still hold resentment when others spend time with their moms, but not nearly as bad. I still hate Mother's Day, but at least I don't cry all day anymore.
**** preg and loss mentioned ****
Last year was the hardest because I was pregnant and due on my moms bday, so I knew it would be my rainbow baby but I still lost it. I found out on the anniversary of her death it was another girl. Sometimes I feel the universe is just out to get me.