I am currently 29 weeks pregnant with twins and am dealing with the inevitable (very soon) loss of my father who is currently in hospice, dying from cancer. I come from a wonderful family that is a great support system, have a terrific husband and I love my dad so very much. Anyone who knows my father feels the same because he's such a great person. My thoughts are that I want to do the best I can to keep my unborn children safe by helping myself. I am planning to start seeing a therapist again and I'm welcome to any other suggestions people might have....or questions/comments. I can't imagine how hard this is going to be since it already is so tough but I feel that I can make it through.
Re: Mourning death of father while pregnant
Married DH 3/14/09
TTC Since Jan 2011
Diagnosed with PCOS Jan 2013
BFP#1 June 2013/ EDD 2/23/2013 Blighted Ovum confirmed July 18, 2013
took Cytotec July 20, 2013
BFP #2 12/28/2013 EDD 9/11/2014 Its A Girl!!! Rebecca Ann!
Rebecca Ann born 8/31/2014 6lb 1oz 19 inches long 8:55am!!!!
Me (30) DH (31) Married 5/13, TTC since 2/13
BFP # 3, EDD 2/21/15 * please be our rainbow*BFP #1 Blighted Ovum resulting in D&C on 11/1/13
BFP #2 Ectopic Pg, lap surgery on 3/12/14, R tube removed
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
It was not easy. My hair fell out, I gained too much weight..
It was strange though.. My doctor said to me just a few weeks before she died that death is a beautiful thing, and being a part of it is special. I was soAd when he said that - I didn't understand. She died early in the morning as the sun rose - her room filled with warm pink light, and it all felt really peaceful. In the end it really was very special.
The whole situation was heartbreaking. She was sad to be missing out on meeting my baby.
How could we have ever known she would have him with her so soon.
It's not easy, and there is no way to ease your pain ...but you can find ways to incorporate your dad into your baby's life - decoration in the nursery, picture books (Shutterfly can print board books of your photos)
...find ways to keep him around and your heart will find peace.
My father passed away 16 years ago - four months after the birth of my daughter.
I completely understand what you're going through.
xo
Femara + Gonal F + Ovidrel 3/6/14 IUI #3 (plus 2x acupuncture)
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Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
"It's, not, where you are, it's where you're going,
And it's, not, about the things you've done, it's what you're doing, now"
TTC Journey Began 8/12
BFP #1 11/9/12, MMC/D&C 12/21/12 @ 9w2d, EDD 7/24/13
SAs: 2%-3% Morph - RE Official Diagnosis Unexplained
BFN = IUI #1 (Clomid) | IUI #2 (Letrozole)
BFP #2 4/19/14 = IUI #3 (Letrozole)
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It sounds like you have a good plan in place with counseling. Rely on your family and friends. Ask for help with the babies when they come and take breaks for yourself.
January PAL siggie challenge; Good advice:
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
About a year ago my cousin was battling cancer and at the very end it actually wasn't sad. I think most of her family (parents, siblings, kids, husband, cousins) had already dealt and somewhat grieved her death before she actually died. Her last days she just wasn't with us, her body was but her mind wasn't. I visited her the evening before she passed. On my way home I prayed to other deceased relatives to come find her and take her, to take her out of her pain and so that everyone could truly start healing and finalizing their grief.
When I got the news that next morning I just felt peace. As pp mentioned, death can be peaceful. I was at peace knowing she wasn't suffering any longer and knowing that my family could start to find themselves again and get back to a healthier & stable daily routine.
I hope you're able to do what you need to do for you to heal, stay healthy and process. (((Hugs)))
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
lots of T&P. i'm so sorry your family is going through this.
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails