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1. I get to work, grab my books, and somehow lay my keys in my seat when I could have SWORN I put them into my purse... got out, and yep, you guessed it.... locked my friggin keys in my damn car!!! We don't have a spare, stupid I know... Besides if we did, I live 1/2 hr away, my husband is dead as a doornail right now cuz he works over nights so it wouldn't do much good because I would still end up having to call a locksmith.
2. I was so pissed and stress out over #1, I lit up a cigarette for the first time since Sunday.
(bangs head on desk)
DH & I 23
Married: 3/23/13 Together since: 4/11/10
DD born 4/19/09 after a summer fling after graduation. Not planned
Dx with Endometriosis and Ovarian Cysts July 2010
TTC since July 2010
DX with unexplained secondary IF 2012
BFP Oct 6, 2013
Confirmation BFP at Dr. Office Oct 7, 2013
Miscarriage confirmed 10/19/13
CD 21 full panel blood work 3/18/14 to initiate fertility treatment
Psalm 34:18 "...The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit..."
Now to find a second opinion...
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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TP to one of my friends - I go on FB today and one of my close friends has posted a photo of her daughter (who was born 3 weeks after Colton was born still) with the caption "We managed to keep this little one alive for 6 whole months!" Now, I realize I am being super sensitive, and this is a dear friend and I know she meant nothing hurtful by it, but it still hurt. I carry so much mommy guilt over losing him and this just hit me. Especially since her daughter and my son would have been so close in age.
DH & I 23
Married: 3/23/13 Together since: 4/11/10
DD born 4/19/09 after a summer fling after graduation. Not planned
Dx with Endometriosis and Ovarian Cysts July 2010
TTC since July 2010
DX with unexplained secondary IF 2012
BFP Oct 6, 2013
Confirmation BFP at Dr. Office Oct 7, 2013
Miscarriage confirmed 10/19/13
CD 21 full panel blood work 3/18/14 to initiate fertility treatment
Psalm 34:18 "...The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit..."
Luckily, I have a very nice boss that is having someone come unlock it at no charge... so WHY DH is pissy is beyond me.
DH & I 23
Married: 3/23/13 Together since: 4/11/10
DD born 4/19/09 after a summer fling after graduation. Not planned
Dx with Endometriosis and Ovarian Cysts July 2010
TTC since July 2010
DX with unexplained secondary IF 2012
BFP Oct 6, 2013
Confirmation BFP at Dr. Office Oct 7, 2013
Miscarriage confirmed 10/19/13
CD 21 full panel blood work 3/18/14 to initiate fertility treatment
Psalm 34:18 "...The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit..."
@MercyGale - I hate when I do that! So frustrating!
@Grailseeker14 - ((hugs))
@AggieBeth06 - That is extremely annoying. I would definitely get another opinion, or at least tell her how you feel. After our loss, I was feeling so much anger at my doctor (it was not her fault, but still, I was angry). I had a good chat with her, and it really helped to talk through it all. ((Hugs))
@GrailSeeker14 - hope you find a way to pass the time without too much frustration
@stefuge - that is a horrible choice of words! I had a bad day on FB too. One of my IRL friends and I were on the same BMB. She just made her reveal post and I was confronted with a huge ultrasound pic of her little bundle, due a day after my angel baby was. Now, she didn't say anything about people with bad attitudes needing to eff off but it was hurtful. Maybe I'll stay off Facebook for a while!
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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TP to all 3 of my SILs. My one SIL included me in a mass text to all of DH's family about our niece being on the way to the hospital because she was in labor. As if that wasn't bad enough, my phone went off several times when I was in a training and I see the original text along with a bunch of happy responses about how they all make cute babies. I was so ragey and upset. If I told you ladies more to the pregnancy you would all be floored but it triggers the shit out of me and so I don't want to trigger anyone anymore, as mentioning someone else's pregnancy is bad enough. I didn't even respond to the texts.