I have a 5 year old boy and a 10 month old girl. My pregnancy was very tough with SPD (symphysis pubic dysfunction) and birth was traumatic too. Nothing has been the same since my daughter was born. I have extreme anxiety and depression, I rarely leave the house. In fact I could go weeks without leaving the house, I only leave to pick up my ds from PRE-K. I feel nothing towards my son anymore, it's a total disconnect. The things I do feel towards him are just bad, like constant annoyance and I just wish. He would shut up and go away. The baby is difficult. She's never been a "good" baby or easy in any way. I'm a stay at home mom and I have no help, EVER. My husband works and I've talked to him about all these feelings and I guess he doesn't think it's as big of a deal as it is to me, he doesn't take me seriously. I am miserable. I don't want tot live. I not like my children or my life. I'm a horrible mother and they would be better off without me.