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Today is my 35th birthday.

Today I turn 35. I remember sitting at the Cheesecake Factory on my 30th birthday, I was away at grad school on that particular day. I remember watching a father wheeling his baby in a stroller outside and realizing that day that I was ready for babies. I went home and looked at The Nest Babies on the Brain board and quickly learned that I had 5 good years of fertility left (or so I thought). As long as I was under 35, things should be easy.

That was 5 years, one miserable divorce, one wonderful remarriage and $40,000 of IF treatments ago. I can't help but feel like today some tipping point in my life occurred and my fertility is now sliding away at an accelerated rate. Do I have to switch over to the TTC after 35 board now? Should I switch from my regular PNV to some older woman brand? When I read all of the statistics for my RE, they're grouped by ages...and I am now in the older category. 

 I'm up for FET #1 next month, and I know I should be grateful for my high AMH and low FSH, DH's awesome SA, and the best and strongest marriage I could have ever hoped for. I guess there is no real meaning to this post...just wondering how anyone else handled a milestone birthday.
Me- 35 Dx endo; DH- 33 no probs.
BFP#1 (totally a wonderful surprise)- 3/10/11. IUFD 6/25/11. 
TTC since 8/2011.
BFP#2- 11/1/11. EDD 7/6/12. Blighted ovum 12/1/11.

New OBGYN 12/2012- CD3 labs, SA, HSG normal. 
First RE appt 1/16/2013. Unexplained infertility. Lap planned. 

12/2012- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN 
1/2013- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN.

 Lap 2/11/2013- Removed endo. 

3/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
4/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
5/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

June 2013- Time for a new RE!

July 2013- We're in Shared Risk! Love my new RE!
August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.
Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>

PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.

Re: Today is my 35th birthday.

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    Happy bday!

    Three ectopic preganacies in left tube in 1999, 2003 and 2004. HSG in 2010 concluded left tube blockage. IUI with femara in 2012 BFN. IVF #1 June 2013, 20 retreived, 14 mature, 12 fertilized via ICSI, one transferred, four frozen, BFN.  FET in September 2013 - BFN:( FET #2 April 2014 - BFP!!!!

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  • You mean, aside from totally freaking out? Ha! 

    Seriously, though. I'm 36 now and think I felt about the same as you did at hitting the dreaded 35 mark! The thing is, my RE continues to tell me how young I am. And I keep asking him if he remembers my age! But he insists I am, and not to add age to my list of worries. 

    So, take that for what it's worth! And happy birthday. 
    <:-P

    TTC#1 since Sept. 2010. Me: 36. DH: 39. Dx with DOR and slight MFI (8/4/11).

    Test results (after first RE visit 6/21/11): 7DPO b/w: Progesterone = 11.3; CD3 b/w: FSH = 10.1 mUnits/mL, E2= 52.0 pg/mL, AFC: 6; SIS Ultrasound: Uterus great, tubes clear! AMH: 0.3 

    IUI#1 June 2012 (Follistim/HCG trigger): BFN 
    IUI#2 July 2012 (Follistim/HCG trigger): BFN 
    IUI#3 August 2012 (Follistim/HCG trigger): CP (Beta #1: 4.61, Beta #2: 1.0) 
    IUI#4 October 2012 (Follistim, ovulated before trigger, missed IUI, converted to TI): BFN 
    Jan. 2013 New RE
    IVF #1 June 2013 MDL Protocol. Converted to IUI#4.1. (High E2 and 3+ mature follicles at first monitoring.) BFFN
    IVF #1.2 August 2013 Stop Lupron Protocol with Human Growth Hormone added. 17R, 14M, 9F (with ICSI), 2 embryos (decent quality - grade 2) transferred on day 3, 2 blasts made it to freeze. Beta 8/26. BFFN :'(

    FET #1 December 2013 Last try! Transferred 2 blasts -- graded 3AB and 4BB. Beta #1 (12/27/13) 530. Beta #2 (12/30/13) 1876. BFP! One bean. EDD 9/3/2014!

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  • Happy Birthday! I hope you stay on this board as long as you need. In my opinion, you are always welcome here. :)
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  • Happy Birthday!
    I am 36 and felt the same way. I didn't move over to the over 35 board either.
    Started TTC #1-5/2011 she arrived 9/15/14 I am 37 and hubs is 38
    Oct 2013 IVF#1 BFN, 1 blast on ice Dec 2013 FET - Dec 20th transferred 4AB blast - BFP!
    Beta #1 = 230 Beta #2 = 478 

    Baby Penguin born 9/15/14 via csection - we are so in love
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  • Happy Birthday!  You're always welcome here!
    Me: 30/Moderate Endometriosis/Bicornuate Uterus
    DH:  34/Perfect

    TTC #1
    June '11 - Lap + Hysteroscopy to remove endo + polyps
    July '11 - July '13:  TTC naturally
    Aug '13 - RE tracked natural cycle/Began aggressive approach
    Oct 10, '13:  Lap + Hysteroscopy #2 to remove endo + polyps + endometrioma
    11/5/13 - IUI #1 (Femara + Follistim + HCG Trigger + Progesterone) = BFN
    12/5/13 - IUI #2
    (Femara + Follistim + HCG Trigger + Progesterone) - BFN
    Jan '14 - IUI #3
    (Femara + Follistim + HCG Trigger + Progesterone) - BFN
    Feb '14 - Prepping for IVF #1...Begin BCP on 2/17
      
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  • Happy Birthday! 

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    Married August 2012 -- Me (40 yrs old) My husband (45 yrs. old) 

    RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF 

    IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN

      Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th!  Egg Retrieval 9/20/13.  19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI

     3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5  Beta #2 on 10/6/13 =  negative

      IVF#2 - Lupron plan  (set to begin on 10/28/13)  (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)

     Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months

    CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron.  (Got my calendar today!  IVF#2 is a go!)

    ER = 1/14/14  (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized.  Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized.  At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing.  Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)

    ET = 1/19/14  (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred!   (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze.  =(  )

    Beta #1 = 1/28/14   (2 weeks after ER)  BFP! 209 (9dp5dt)   EDD 10/7/14

    Beta #2 - 1/30/14  (11 dp5dt) 302

    Beta #3 - 2/3/14  (15 dp5dt)  1222 

    Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS!        Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm

    Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.

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  • Happy Birthday!

    Like previous posters have said, it's not like your ovaries are going to decide to stop working night!  But what do I know, I'm just a young whipper snapper at almost 31. ;)

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    September 2012: Start IF testing

    DH (31): SA is ok, slightly low morph  Me (31): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA

    October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos

    November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues.


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  • Happy Birthday!


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    TTC #1 since 2009
    Between June 2009 and March 2010 I only had 3 periods
    In March 2010 diagnosed with PCOS
    October 2011 Lap discovered stage 4 endo, twisted and destroyed tubes
    January 2013 blood work finds elevated NK cells & partial DQ Alpha Match
    March 2013 2nd Lap shows worse endo, left ovary is fused to bowel
    DH great aside from very low morph
    May 2013 finally start IVF ,conversion protocol - ICSI, 9 retrieved, 6 mature, 5 fertilize,1 transferred on day 5 other 4 frozen on day 5 = bfn
    July 2013 FET 1.1Lupron, Prednisone, E2V, Intralipid Infusion, Cancelled due to insufficient lining
    October 2013 FET 1.2 Lupron, Prednisone, Viagra Suppositories, Terbutaline, Baby Asprin, E2V, Intralipid Infusion,Hopeful transfer 10/02
    One perfect blast transfered on 10/02- beta on 10/10, please stick little embie.
    Beta #1. 25 Beta #2 234. 1st u/s Nov 4th - no heartbeat, stopped growing 6w2d.
    D&C Nov 8th. Beta 11/13 112 11/15 46. 12/2 finally 1.9 Results show baby boy, trisomy 6.
    12/5 Saline Sono all clear - start Lupron Dec 30th - for FET 2
    Jan 28th transferred one beautiful blast.  2/5 beta 18 2/7 beta 14 - cp.
    waiting for beta to drop to 0 again. Will cycle in March
     Feb 25th polyp found, scheduled removal and sclerotherapy of cyst, delayed another month
    March 24th will start lupron, hopeful FET April 22nd - bfn
    June 27th Final Frosty transferred beta #1. 273 #2. 754 -EDD 3/15/15

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  • Happy birthday! My grandmother was 39 when she had her FIRST of 3 children! She didn't have IF obviously but it always makes me feel better to remember her when people talk about age and fertility.

     

     

     

     

     

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    DH SA normal count and motility, 1% morphology
    Me .72 AMH, Fragile X premutation carrier
    IVF #1 (6/12/13) BFN

    IVF #2 (8/16/13) BFN

    FET 10/4/13 Chemical

    IVF #3 MC 5 weeks 5 days

    Starting DE process fall 2014

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  • Happy Birthday. Yep, when I turned 35 in December I felt just like you. And cried off and on for a good week. But my AFC is actually higher this month than the last two treatment cycles and I keep telling myself my ovaries did not take a dive that day. It was just another day.

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
    JUNE 2014 IVF#2;  5R, 2M, 1F Three day transfer 6/7.  Beta 6/18 - BFN
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  • Happy wonderful birthday you have a wonderful marriage now. Discovered Infertitly issues early enough have a FET waiting ;)

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    Me: 28, DH: 30 TTC since March 2012
    PCO & MTHFR Homozygous/Severe MFI (undescended teste & double hernia as baby)

    12/12: 50mg clomid= bfn
    1/13: 100mg clomid= bfn
    2/13: 100mg clomid= bfn 
    6/13: IVF/ICSI (x1 4AA)=BFFN ~49R, 44M, 33F, 14 frosties  OHSS
    8/13: FET #1 (x1 4AA)=First EVER BFP 4dp5dt!! d&c @ 6.5 wks, blighted ovum

    10/13: FET #2 (x2 4AA)= BFP 4dp5dt! Twins!!, perfect u/s then spontaneous m/c @ 5 wks
    11/13= RPL/Karotyping= MTHFR Homozygous c667t
    1/14= FET #3 our 2 year anniversary & hopefully our miracle

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  • Happy Birthday! I hope you stay here with us! :) Sorry you're feeling a little down, but keep your chin up you seem like an extremely strong woman who has been through quite a bit in her life but keeps in truckin' I admire that.

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    Me: 26  DH: 30 :: TCC #1 since 01.2012
    **unexplained infertility**
    04.2013 b/w & HSG normal - DH SA 98% motile 31mill
    05.2013 IUI cycle #1 - Clomid - follies 27,22,21,12- 31mil post wash 98% motile - BFN
    06.2013 IUI cycle #2 - Clomid - follies 32,22,18,18,14 - 22mil post wash 99% motile - BFN
    07.2013 IUI cycle #3 -  Clomid - follies 29, 20, 15 - 43mil post wash 98% motile -
    BFN
    08.2013 09.2013 IVF cycle #1 - Lupron + Menopur + Follistim - 7R 6F - 5dt (2) 4AA blasts - BFP on HPT 4dp5dT

    10dp5dt - Beta #1 = 249
    12dp5dt -
    Beta #2 = 475
    19dp5dt - Beta #3 = 4,608
            7w - 127bpm
            8w - 166bpm
          10w - 158bpm

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  • Stay here...I'm 38, and I didn't go to the 35 board. I'm not just 35 and TTC, we have IF, here is where I belong. You have a lot going for you...good labs, great sperm...stay positive.

    Other than dealing with IF, I sure hope you had a very special birthday!

    Happy Birthday

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  • I think the milestones of any birthday get to be hard during IF treatment. I turned 36 the day I got a BFN from my first (completed) IVF. It really felt hard--and scary. But you will get past this--like the previous posts, your ovaries don't know the difference between a few months ago and now and it is just a number. Hang in there!
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    me: DOR, DH: counts are good

    IVF # 1:BCPs then antagonist. Cancelled for poor response
    IVF #2: no BCPs then MDL: 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized, 2 transferred at day 2-BFN
    IVF #3 New RE! BCPs then MDL: 8 retrieved, 8 fertilized, 2 transferred day 5-BFN
    IVF #4 October 2013. BCPs then MDL: 8 R, 8F, 2 transferred day 5 in Nov--BFP!! 
    December 2013: Ultrasound shows a single intrauterine pregnancy! 


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  • Happy Birthday, lady. IF makes birthdays, anniversaries, and holidays that used to be joyful bittersweet, with each marking the passing time, but there is joy waiting for each of us on the other side, however we happen to get there.

    Me: 28, DH: 35
    DX: Severe MFI, AZFc Microdeletion
    TTC since August 2011
    IVF w/ ICSI 1: Dec. 2013 - BFN
    FET 1.2: Mar. 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.3: May 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.4: June 2014 - BFP
    Two little buns in the oven. 
    Bake until March 2015, little ones. 


    "Life will be clearer around me.
     Life will be more burdensome for me. 
    Life will be richer for me." 
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  • Happy Birthday! I too, will be celebrating a birthday in 9 days. I have been dreading the years as I get closer to 35, will be turning 34 this year. But I am grateful to still have a chance at this. Like @ThoseThreeWords said, you have frosties of a 34 yr old. I too am hoping I will have healthy embryos of a 33year old :D
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  • I'm so sorry your birthday was tainted by IF, but I hope you found some joy in the day. Happy Birthday!
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    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN
    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently Suppressing

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  • I hope you had a wonderful birthday regardless of the number!
    I am quickly approaching that birthday too but my RE still insists that I am young and everything is great, so I'm just trying to roll with it.
    Me: 34, DH: 31 :: TCC since 2/11
    SA: Perfect! CD3  HSG = Blocked Right Tube
    April- Femara 2.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN
    May- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN
    June- Femara 7.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN
    August- Lap & Hysteroscopy = Blocked & Partially Blocked Tubes
    September- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN
    October- 100mg Clomid + Trigger + TI = BFN
    IVF # 1: Stims 11/30 ER 12/12/12! (10R, 10M, 8F, 2T, 6 F) :: Beta #1- 176  c/p @ 4w4d
    FET #1 February 26th :: Lost 4 to Thaw, Transferred 2 = BFFN
    IVF # 2 Stims 5/10 ER 5/21 (15R, 13M, 13F, 2T, 7F- 6d3 & 1d5) :: Beta # 1- 15 c/p @ 4w
    FET #2 Cancelled, Right Tube Developed a Hydro
    8/28 Hydro & Scar Tissue Removed  Cleared for FET
    FET #2.2 Scheduled for September 20th
    2 Thawed, 2 Transferred! Beta #1- 96, Beta #2 906! :: EDD June 10th

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  • I hope your birthday was wonderful, despite this IF crap!  I agree with others, your ovaries didn't take a dive at midnight.  Focus on the positives, your wonderful husband and frozen embryos.  Try to stay positive!
     

     

     

      
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  • Happy Birthday! 35 is really not that old :), even as far as IF is concerned. 
    I've been on the TTC over 5 board; a lot of the ladies on there are just TTC naturally. They're not undergoing fertility treatments so they would no idea where you're coming from.
    Me:PCOS, fibroids DH: no issues 
    TTC for 3 years. IVF #1 in Jan 12 - severe OHSS; miscarriage at 11 weeks
    2 myomectomies and 6 hysteroscopies in 2012 and 2013.
    FET in Aug 2013 BFP

     
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  • Happy Birthday!
    Anniversary
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    DH and I: Both 31
    HSG, bloodwork, SA-possible blockage in right tube Continue TI July 2012 August 2012: Clomid 50mg + TI=bfn, switched RE September 2012: Redo HSG-blockage in right tube confirmed November 2012: Clomid 25mg, Bravelle + Trigger + IUI= ectopic pregnancy December 2012: emergency laparoscopy and D&C, removed right tube 2 more IUI's-one bfn, one CP IVF #1=CP FET#1=BFN IVF#2-converted to FET due to PGS testing and high progesterone levels. Only one good embryo from PGS-didn't survive thaw. transferred 2 embryos from IVF #1=BFP! 2 yolks sacs seen at 5w4d sonogram!
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  • You guys made me feel so much better. It was a good day and DH and I celebrated by getting ready for the closing on our new house tomorrow!
    Me- 35 Dx endo; DH- 33 no probs.
    BFP#1 (totally a wonderful surprise)- 3/10/11. IUFD 6/25/11. 
    TTC since 8/2011.
    BFP#2- 11/1/11. EDD 7/6/12. Blighted ovum 12/1/11.

    New OBGYN 12/2012- CD3 labs, SA, HSG normal. 
    First RE appt 1/16/2013. Unexplained infertility. Lap planned. 

    12/2012- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN 
    1/2013- Clomid 50mg + TI= BFN.

     Lap 2/11/2013- Removed endo. 

    3/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
    4/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN
    5/2013- Clomid + IUI= BFN

    June 2013- Time for a new RE!

    July 2013- We're in Shared Risk! Love my new RE!
    August 2013- IVF#1- 14 R, 11F, transferred 1 perfect blast, 5 day 5 frosties= BFN.
    Sept 2013- Let's get ready for FET October 7th ish!< transfer 2 embies 10/11/13.......BFP 10/18/13!!!!/div>

    PAIF/SAIF and everyone is welcome. If I can make even one person's journey less painful, I will consider my experience here successful. Thank you to all for sharing their stories, the intimate details of their lives, their knowledge, and their hearts. I hope this experience changes me, always for the better.
    Viasatalyte
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